09-21-2023, 11:07 PM
Tried to switch to MIR during my off days due to a wound that I didn't want infected. Not the correct choice. The new generations of subs are as such that I cannot turn subs on a dime anymore. Subconscious was protesting all day and it wasn't enjoyable.
Off days can leave me feeling kind of raw. Like all the defenses I've built up to ignore the parts about myself I don't like or feel bad about are gone and I feel bare to them. Might be that the off days interrupted some work in progress. Not an enjoyable feeling. I feel like my flaws are obvious to everyone and it's a very vulnerable state.
Just want to curl up and hide from everyone due to these ugly feelings.
Off days can leave me feeling kind of raw. Like all the defenses I've built up to ignore the parts about myself I don't like or feel bad about are gone and I feel bare to them. Might be that the off days interrupted some work in progress. Not an enjoyable feeling. I feel like my flaws are obvious to everyone and it's a very vulnerable state.
Just want to curl up and hide from everyone due to these ugly feelings.