02-05-2023, 02:03 PM
I had some interesting experiences on my first night, so I thought I'd start a journal.
Firstly, resistance. Immediately after turning on the playlist, my mind snapped its attention obsessively on some trivial problem, and I kept turning it over in my head until I fell asleep--I noticed it, and made a note of it, but I don't remember the subject of the obsession. I don't think it was material. I could feel my mind trying to escape, focusing my attention on anything but OGSF.
Secondly, a dream that I think was about my inner child? I was in a house like complex inside what felt like a cave. I had to look after a baby girl that was advanced in her communication beyond her age. She was the child of my friends. She was waddling around and I was trying to take care of her, and at one point I was focusing on something else when I heard her crying. Our common friend who is gay was there criticising me/warning me about not taking care of her properly (along the lines of our friends will be disappointed/will lose trust). I went to find her in another room, and realised that she was fine and it was only a doll with a crying sound track. I woke up thinking that I didn't change her dirty diaper before we went to bed, but realised that it was only a dream. Weird.
I had a lot of neck tension from OFv4. I'm hoping OGSF 5.9g will not trigger the same.
Firstly, resistance. Immediately after turning on the playlist, my mind snapped its attention obsessively on some trivial problem, and I kept turning it over in my head until I fell asleep--I noticed it, and made a note of it, but I don't remember the subject of the obsession. I don't think it was material. I could feel my mind trying to escape, focusing my attention on anything but OGSF.
Secondly, a dream that I think was about my inner child? I was in a house like complex inside what felt like a cave. I had to look after a baby girl that was advanced in her communication beyond her age. She was the child of my friends. She was waddling around and I was trying to take care of her, and at one point I was focusing on something else when I heard her crying. Our common friend who is gay was there criticising me/warning me about not taking care of her properly (along the lines of our friends will be disappointed/will lose trust). I went to find her in another room, and realised that she was fine and it was only a doll with a crying sound track. I woke up thinking that I didn't change her dirty diaper before we went to bed, but realised that it was only a dream. Weird.
I had a lot of neck tension from OFv4. I'm hoping OGSF 5.9g will not trigger the same.