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[Shannon]

What you're describing is a serious fight with your fearful subconscious doing everything it can think of to avoid dealing with it's fears. This will fail, and over time, you'll make progress. Tiredness comes from the cooperative parts contradicting the efforts of the non-cooperative parts, and the asshole coming out is the result of you undergoing major changes to yourself down to your core. You are making adjustments that are unbinding you and you have to learn how to deal with these changes. It's a process we see during major transformations which basically require that you re-calibrate yourself as to how to deal with your world. It's a process, and it takes time, but by the sounds of it, it's having a very big impact on you. Keep going!