OFv3 being fearless

[Johannesbrst]

Feeling like a pillar of light, masculinity, peace and presence.

Start re-reading Sexgod method.

Creativity is like wildfire. I got stories.
Boatloads of realisations, release and letting go like a reckless abandonment. This in returns manifests in a sense of peace and clarity of mind aswell as progression.

I release all fears, people, situations, worries, doubts.

Blinders are off.

5 loops of hybrid are paying off grandly.

Started reading sexgod method, thanks for the tip. It's interesting stuff, even though I feel resistance when reading it, I can see how it can work toward its purpose.

[GreekGod22]

You're the first person in here I read of running 5 loops of Hybrid.
I thought @Shannon Shannon was saying at some point how 4 is the maximum.

[Kol]

Feeling like a pillar of light, masculinity, peace and presence.

Start re-reading Sexgod method.

Creativity is like wildfire. I got stories.
Boatloads of realisations, release and letting go like a reckless abandonment. This in returns manifests in a sense of peace and clarity of mind aswell as progression.

I release all fears, people, situations, worries, doubts.

Blinders are off.

5 loops of hybrid are paying off grandly.

Started reading sexgod method, thanks for the tip. It's interesting stuff, even though I feel resistance when reading it, I can see how it can work toward its purpose.

No problem. The book did had me face some limiting beliefs myself.

[Kol]

You're the first person in here I read of running 5 loops of Hybrid.
I thought @Shannon Shannon was saying at some point how 4 is the maximum.

Im following autoconfig, which happened to coin 5 loops of hybrid.

[Kol]

Day 1 OFF 74/180

Im so euphoric and am so sexy that I cannot stand it at times. With women, this dreamlike vibe carries over, as if it is our little secret. This dreamlike vibe seems hella key with manifestation. I just can't man...wtf. its just so so good.

My eyes are beautiful af aswell. Different.. magnetic.

Women and people are picking up on my awesomeness. Im being hit with euphoria again. Im so gratefull. I want to scream it from the top of the roofs ( really, Ive been thinking about primal scream therapy, no cap lmao ) J is spoiling me at the gym. Its the 3rd time she came up to me saying its more milk/protein or whatever. Hitting the jackpot lol. To think there was friction between us pre-sub and now she enjoys doing this.

I have barely anything to say other then that execution on this sub is ridiculous. Man o man.

SHANNON!!!!!!!!!

[Kol]

Running 2 loops of hybrid atm, first loop just started.

I notice how fear is messing with my relationships. This is something being dealt with right now and it expresses itself in shutdown-ignoring stemming from a fear interference.

[Kol]

Day 75.

[Kol]

Day 76

Had lots of dreams involving one of my mentors, the teachings and what not. It was...interesting. sharing in a group setting. I noticed my struggle in it but corrections in a natural growth way took place. I can faintly recall different environments yet leave it at there.

Im disrooting tons of excuses. It clicked.

Im letting go off attachments. I dont like how im dependent in some way. As I was hitting the shower, I started to reflect on this, on growth, dependencies and what not. It possibly has to do with my upbringing, being a good worker, loyal, friendly, people liking me. I see the same coming back nowadays, people in general like me, living for praise basically. But being dependent, especially in our current times, hell to the nah. Ive done it before, just ditching and it brought me clarity of mind and insight, to be not in chains. There has to be a strategic way. When I said F it, the river flowed instantly. Guilt is another one.

Dependency. Its a thing. I let it sit for a bit. No conclusions atm. What keeps my busy with this is, if the party im dependent on falls away, then what? Seem whole society is wired like this. Also, its stiffling, a selling myself short and not being independent self governing, a waste of creative juices and spurit inside. Guilt is massive in this, hearing the bs stories instead of pushing forward. Doom and gloom crabs in a bucket.

[Kol]

I dont think I need to UMS or DMSI anymore... seems I used those to fill a need inside. Makes sense.
I might run them just for fun tho. This attitude I always wanted with subs. Fun. Knowing they work.
Its only upwards from this point.

Something that sticks with me is a quote on less expectations less dissapointments.

Added: after contemplating this morning to hit the gym or not, I decided to go anyway. Walked in, greeted everyone and engaged G at the counter. First thing she said "you are late?" Bantered a bit with her, man, I was just flowing. Fearless coming from a place of feeling really good.
She kept looking and looking while I was working out. There is a vibe going between us, unspoken but it is there, undeniable.

After training, some dude started bantering. "Those shakes aint good for you, they make you to strong" I deflected that. Didnt give a fuck. Had fun toying with it.

After that, had to get something, I chatted up the security, new guy, didnt care. Its nice just flow without the mental chatter or anything. I like it, just living and being alive, feeling good. After I passed, walked in, placed order. I noticed there used to be a certain frame assumed, subconsciously but subtly. I shifted. She serves me and this how I deal with shawties. Dominant by nature, the prize, she be serving me. This made me release more bs.

Now, I couldnt help as I was driving home, to notice asses of girls. Before I used to shy away from it due the "dont give un-earned attention" but now im actively visualizing and looking like a king, throwing myself in the deep. I feel like a huge player, pimp, manager of shawties. I had to laugh because it is hilarious. OFv3 is the shit! Im having fun, top notch self amusement and just releasing fear making me feel euphoric. Im unapologetic about it.

I can strike up a conversation with anyone. When interacting with women, they cannot help but submit. I give them tasks, put them to use, to vet, to see, to test, and because they aint used to it. It convenient in running my life, recruiting people in general. Sexual tension right from the bat, ubfazed by her cuteness and what not. I mean "shawty, you aint that cute"

I do shift towards a future hendrix pluto attitude, yanno, the rapper future, she belongs to the streets? The nice guy is no more. Its helping me massively. Shit clicks instantly if not shortly after I wasnt sure about it.

Im having fun with the line in my head "dawg the baddie-hunter" LMFAO.

Another thing I notice, I NEED to socialize. Challenging myself, going out, gaining new experiences. A day without people interaction and testing myself drives me completely nuts.

[Kol]

Day 77

Ran 2 loops ultrasonic last night. Im procrastinating, having no creativity going, just wasting time. I want to know why that is. Its low mental activity, and it sucks. Reflecting on this right now. Guess its fear of going after my goals, which, tbh, makes sense and let whatever it is, up for a bit. But damn, the passiveness coming with this, like a vegetable, the lack of motivation and bordering amnesia in the moment aint benefitting at all, while knowing the world lays right open. It aint making me happy, thats for sure, albeit it is temporary and part of the process.

I want this fear gone. This fear of success, this fear and delusion, mental ghosts that aint real to begin with and been busted by experience countless times. This sense of dissolving into nothingness by doing nothing but timewasting.

Edit: ran the search engine (keywords subliminaltalk limbo ) änd came across a post from @Shannon mentioning they are very deep changes, which affirms from within.

[Kol]

Day 77 cont;

Running loops, ultrasonic. Had building anxiety and confusion while moderating in a livestream as I engaged. Depression was building up rapidly escalating into panic attack and isolation/retreat to suffer alone. The relief is instantly. Solid. Reflecting on situations has me receiving instant answers, minor things got me direct answers, things I sense which might not be true as they are never vocalized, which then escalate.

[Kol]

Day 78

Ran 8 loops over night, will go a second round tonight <3
Will run loops also when something happens like yesterday.

OFv3 <3

[Kol]

Day 79

Carpetbombed last night till this morning.

The 2 loops thats been coined today just has started and OF tears directly into it. Things surrounding my father and his ways ( never heard "you did agood job" or anything ) and also the "I wish I was never born"

Oof.

Also,am invited to hang out which triggers fear. Good, its been a thing.

[Kol]

Day 80.

Im about to let restrictions go ( on/off days ) and simply wont mention them anymore. Letting OF doing its thing as the moment im writing about ends up me running loops. The process is ongoing. Simply feel no need to mention anything at all. Day on/off mentioning comes across as breaking the momentum. No clue why. Im on my off day atm since whenever and have ran 9 loops in the night of 10-8 / 11-8
The night before that 8 loops. Also with loops at evenings. US in the background

What I do notice is that there are numbers being coined ( 2 loops ) WHILE running loops already, like I aint running loops while I actually do at that moment.

Yesterday fear of failure popped up while being in the livestream moderating, when chopping up on game and making it your own. OF is working wonders.

There are moments I simply am. There are moments im vocalizing "I am fearless" and a sense of "ive been lying for years to myself" testimonial of OFv3 that it goes around.

Im not looking for results, results simply pop up.

Its inevitable that when you up your value things change. Jelousy admiration love whatever envy. Relationships. Polygamy. Cards you deal. Its what it is *shrug* dont care.

Im severing ties. Cutting out the energies out of my life. There is/was an element of fear in that. Emotions might get in the way but its similar to what I did with girls, even I liked tgem, they still had to go.



My focal point of attraction is changing. Higher quality women because im high quality. Manifesting them for me to let go of fear and getting adjusted. It is what it is.

*snippit from my offline journal* :

Have shawties bring you more shawties while having an abundance of all these shawties #universe #abundance
Other shawties on my mind keeps the neediness and bs away.
Its about being a man layin the groundwork.

Be the carddealer. Stand out. Break the wave.

*end snippit*

Another is, I gotta have direction in what I do.