03-31-2021, 01:22 PM
Day 26
My eating habits have changed for the better. I'm eating less without feeling hungry. I also naturally stop eating when I'm full even if there's food left on the plate. This is significant. For whatever reason, I've felt like leaving uneaten food was unmanly. It's possible that it stems from the fact that I've been able to eat more than my dad since I was 10 years old. Maybe I got a pat on the back for that and feared disappointing someone. I don't remember. This change began about 2 weeks ago.
My already anti social tendencies have increased. I've also been irritable. This all seems to stem from some painful experiences I had with close friends during my younger years. I recall feeling betrayed and on the verge of tears. It hurt. At some point in life, I learned to withdraw into myself.
In certain ways, I'm feeling more motivated. I have two home maintenance items to tackle in the near future. They just so happen to be two things I have feared for a while, so it's interesting that they're the two things that need to be addressed. I have a little bit of apprehension, but it's manageable.
I have strong desire to run a sex-related sub. It's possible that OFv2 is working on some related fears and my attention is being brought to the subject as a result.
My eating habits have changed for the better. I'm eating less without feeling hungry. I also naturally stop eating when I'm full even if there's food left on the plate. This is significant. For whatever reason, I've felt like leaving uneaten food was unmanly. It's possible that it stems from the fact that I've been able to eat more than my dad since I was 10 years old. Maybe I got a pat on the back for that and feared disappointing someone. I don't remember. This change began about 2 weeks ago.
My already anti social tendencies have increased. I've also been irritable. This all seems to stem from some painful experiences I had with close friends during my younger years. I recall feeling betrayed and on the verge of tears. It hurt. At some point in life, I learned to withdraw into myself.
In certain ways, I'm feeling more motivated. I have two home maintenance items to tackle in the near future. They just so happen to be two things I have feared for a while, so it's interesting that they're the two things that need to be addressed. I have a little bit of apprehension, but it's manageable.
I have strong desire to run a sex-related sub. It's possible that OFv2 is working on some related fears and my attention is being brought to the subject as a result.
