06-29-2020, 05:08 AM
2 Nights off.
Today I have noticed certain negative feelings coming back in relation to topics that would trigger me before. So whatever was numbing it, covering it or whatever, has faded as I have felt it again today and I noticed It was easier to think about it more.
In some ways it is good, as I don't want unrealistic expectations, as it has only been one round!
But I will definitely be able to know if it is helping me in the long term, especially on days off, as I know what I feel normally in regards to these certain topics.
It is definitely fear related though, so looking forward to seeing what happens.
Today I have noticed certain negative feelings coming back in relation to topics that would trigger me before. So whatever was numbing it, covering it or whatever, has faded as I have felt it again today and I noticed It was easier to think about it more.
In some ways it is good, as I don't want unrealistic expectations, as it has only been one round!
But I will definitely be able to know if it is helping me in the long term, especially on days off, as I know what I feel normally in regards to these certain topics.
It is definitely fear related though, so looking forward to seeing what happens.
