11-14-2020, 05:23 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-14-2020, 05:24 AM by kuroshabedi.)
Updates: that girl that i said goodbye in a peaceful way and responded peacefully too blocked me now i dont know why but it doesnt matter
So I speak 3 languages (german , persian and a bit english as you can see) and my mother language (persian) is just avarage for someone that is born in germany and yesterday when i was on a birthday party i suddenly had to phone with some family members about a very sensitive topic that my vocubalary is not good enough to act confident. Normally i would runaway from this responsibility because of fear. I felt the fear inside me but I didnt runaway and knew it has to be done. I was confident i acted very confident. After this people were surprised how good i did speak and they were surprised about my vocubalary. Felt good. I think confidence is when you are brave in situation that seem tough to you
On day 20 without PMO and social media except youtube. Everything is more enjoyable (reading breathing thinking walking.. just everything. Holding eye contact is the easiest thing in the world.. + i have lucid dreams now
But still I sometimes feel sad because of the things i left behind me even if they were unhealthy like specific friends or girls..
So I speak 3 languages (german , persian and a bit english as you can see) and my mother language (persian) is just avarage for someone that is born in germany and yesterday when i was on a birthday party i suddenly had to phone with some family members about a very sensitive topic that my vocubalary is not good enough to act confident. Normally i would runaway from this responsibility because of fear. I felt the fear inside me but I didnt runaway and knew it has to be done. I was confident i acted very confident. After this people were surprised how good i did speak and they were surprised about my vocubalary. Felt good. I think confidence is when you are brave in situation that seem tough to you
On day 20 without PMO and social media except youtube. Everything is more enjoyable (reading breathing thinking walking.. just everything. Holding eye contact is the easiest thing in the world.. + i have lucid dreams now
But still I sometimes feel sad because of the things i left behind me even if they were unhealthy like specific friends or girls..
