OCF4-Road to Freedom 2: A New Beginning (SCUUD)

[MrGnome]

day off 2 Cycle 15:

August 8: I placed an order on an unkown website to preorder a PS5 and that was the start of a hell hole...

August 18: At first I was supposed to get it 7 days later but 10 days later I got a mail saying that there's a delay nothing weird yet..

September 12: I got tired of waiting so I wanted to cancel the preorder and they responded with the question if I wanted to continue my cancellation if send it a week later so I said I would wait for it...

September 21: Still no delivery.. So I told them I wanted to cancel it for sure. they asked me why and I told them but they didn't cancelled even though I thought they did..

October 5: I found out that it never got cancelled so I asked them to do it.. and they finally did..

October 19: I waited 2 weeks to get my money back but it didn't came.. So I had to ask it AGAIN and I made a trust pilot review on there crappy service

October 20: they responded immediatly, They called me and they DEMANDED that I would remove the review first before I would get my money back (the money that I was supposed to get back 2 weeks before this..)

So I standed strong and told them No Give me back my money first! Then I removed it after a few pushes to change my mind they gave in, I got my money back and I DIDN'T remove the review because of there Horrible buisiness actions.

It also helped that I got some help from my friends: 1 who told me to keep an eye on the shop, 1 Who had experience with the law and stuff and 1 Who Improved my review..

So now I finally got my money back, The company also Demanded to keep my words but after all the BS I had to go trough I just blocked there whatsapp and now I'm living my life with proud that I finally got the strenght to stand up for my self.

Thanks to my friends and Thanks to OCF4 : )

Hey MrGnome, Why didn't you contact you credit card company to help you with this. It seems like a dispute. By law they have to cancel. You get time date and who you spoke with and request a cancellation #, if they give you a problem demand to speak with supervisor. You have every right to give them a bad review. They should like they don't really help there customer and take advange of them.

To be honest I dont had a lot of experience with this kind of thing because I used to avoid conflict in generale, But yeah this whole thing was messed up hence why they still got my review and I got my money back so I"m happy : )

[dissonance]

I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.

I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.

I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?

Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.

And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.

It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.

I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.

https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos

Yeah man, if only I knew the detriments of porn as well as chronic over-masturbation (massively affecting testosterone and dopamine; both extremely important during puberty and entire teenage yrs) back around my ages of 10-20 lol...

[MrGnome]

I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.

I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.

I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?

Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.

And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.

It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.

I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.

https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos

Thanks,You are right! I used porn to cope with my Loneliness turning it into an endless cycle, Guess I have to start nofap again and hope I will last longer then 2 weeks this time around.

It also helps I'm getting a coach in order to fix my private life,So when I combine these 2 and all the experiences I'm going to use,Mayby I will be able to finally change myself and start living life for once..

[MrGnome]

I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.

I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.

I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?

Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.

And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.

It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.

I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.

https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos

Yeah man, if only I knew the detriments of porn as well as chronic over-masturbation (massively affecting testosterone and dopamine; both extremely important during puberty and entire teenage yrs) back around my ages of 10-20 lol...

Yeah I started at age 14 and I noticed the longer I did it the weirder my fetisches became.. So I hope I will be able to fix this.

[dissonance]

I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.

I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.

I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?

Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.

And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.

It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.

I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.

https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos

Yeah man, if only I knew the detriments of porn as well as chronic over-masturbation (massively affecting testosterone and dopamine; both extremely important during puberty and entire teenage yrs) back around my ages of 10-20 lol...

Yeah I started at age 14 and I noticed the longer I did it the weirder my fetisches became.. So I hope I will be able to fix this.

You will. How old are you now?

[dissonance]

delete this pls. double post.

[MrGnome]

I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.

I better clarify this because unfortunately you don't seem aware of it. Which is fine because I got stuck in that pattern for a long time. So this is coming from a place of my own experience and knowledge.

I'm not sure why you have the impression that porn would just hurt Alpha Male V6. Does it also harm OF v4?

Yes.. but that's because porn usage harms your whole life. It drains your energy, your confidence, makes you feel weaker, causes you to feel more anxious in general and especially around women, gets you craving the next hit of dopamine, drains your drive in general.

And the best way I could explain it, and when I talked about it with my friend he agreed. It basically drains your desire to go out and engage with life.

It may sound like harsh thoughts about porn, but it is very damaging.

I don't have a specific video unfortunately, I haven't watched this guys videos but I do get his newsletter and it has some good stuff around porn usage and the issues it causes.

https://www.youtube.com/c/MarkQueppet/videos

Yeah man, if only I knew the detriments of porn as well as chronic over-masturbation (massively affecting testosterone and dopamine; both extremely important during puberty and entire teenage yrs) back around my ages of 10-20 lol...

Yeah I started at age 14 and I noticed the longer I did it the weirder my fetisches became.. So I hope I will be able to fix this.

You will. How old are you now?

I turned 32 last month,Hence why I got desperate about usings my experiences as fast and flawless as possible,Considering I dont have a career because I work to slow,I have no Girlfriend because I dont really know how to start conversations with strangers and I still live with my Mother even thought it's not that bad,I still want to get my stuff together..

I know alot of this is because of my Autism (PDD-NOS) but still I wanna find out what can be fixed and what not.

[MrGnome]

day off 1 Cycle 16:

Today was an interesting day: it started this morning when I started eating breakfast and I started to pay more attention to my hunger level wich I used to ignored but I ate slightly more anyway Cause I had to work today and it would be 5 hours later to get food again (and 3 hours later back at home again).

On the job it self was also interessting,It was the first time I was alone at the work place (well not really but I was the only one in the place where I had to do the dishes) So I did what was asked of me (this is one of my problems at the work place, always having to ask what I'm supposed to do now.)

but my manager told me I was to slow and I needed to multitask (another work related issue I have being bad at multitasking and working fast)

So he told me I cant go home before I cleaned everything up at 13:00 (I work from 9:30 till 15:30),So I got kinda pissed and Thought I had no chance to stay there after the trial period so I did everything I could to clean everything up on my own account (this is interessting because normally I would be to scared or depressed to do anything and if I dont know how to do things correctly I usally ignore it,also it not a washing machine like people have at home)

later on I screwed up and something went wrong (normally I would be to scared to do anything and probbably run for help) So I just Turned it off (the dishwasher)

Took the thing I thought was the problem out and closed it and I was correct! and I could just clean the room up and remove all the water before anyone found out I screwed up to begin with.

I was kinda Proud I was able to fix it all by myself.

Later on at 14:30 I was told to just clean up the dishes that wear on the table and then I could home,So I did that and got some help from him (the manager) Later on at 15:15 I was done and was allowed to go home (15 mins before I was supposed to go home)

Wich makes me think that he's secretly training me to become a Better,Faster and Harder worker wich is kinda cool and he got my respect for doing it.

I hope I'm right though cause this would mean that He and OCF4 are working together to make me a better worker and hopefully more succesful at work life.

[MrGnome]

Day off 3 Cycle 18:

Welp Like I said in the discussion, My initiative has increased at work.

I also got someone to help me with my private live. (as an externale source so now the sub and the coach can work together)

I also noticed that my want to use Aura of Love becomes stronger everyday...

Even more so after I learned that somethings I thought were because of fear might be caused by lack of self love instead.

It's also possible that my subconcious is trying to let me stop useing it. if this is the case I'm wondering what can be removed in the time I have left. (I will be done at the first week of March)

I also noticed I can deal with uncertainly lately wich is nice as well.

To bad I messed up the whole no fap thing because I still enjoyed it to much somewhere but I'm also noticing I really need to stop it, I just need to find the strength to stop it again.

Having more distractions in life would be helpfull too but oh well there's no hurry.

Everything OCF4 cant remove will be later removed with Aura of Love later on anyway so everything is gonna be alright.

[MrGnome]

Day Off 1 Cycle 20:

Not much to report other then that my subconcious seems to create more distance between me and the mobile audio output..

I have no idea how to stop this resistance..

[User_000]

Like my subconscious obsession with hearing loss.

[MrGnome]

Day on 2 Cycle 21:

Welp today sucked, after my sleep I figured out that I had my sub on 6 clicks instead of 7.

I got pretty much the biggest explosions of fears today...

I couldn't do my main task because there was something wrong with the dish washer machine..

And I'm pretty much forced to use HOWL next instead of aura of love because my trial job is only making me fatter when I was already a pretty fat guy...

I wish time would just go faster, So I get to the stage where I completed 5 or 6 subs succesfully so I dont have to fail like a failure anymore...

Oh well atleast the Sleep Optimizer System will come out tomorrow hopefully it will work better than Advanced Stress Relief.

Although Advanced Stress Relief is still a good program.

[Giacomonos]

Day on 2 Cycle 21:

Welp today sucked, after my sleep I figured out that I had my sub on 6 clicks instead of 7.

I got pretty much the biggest explosions of fears today...

I couldn't do my main task because there was something wrong with the dish washer machine..

And I'm pretty much forced to use HOWL next instead of aura of love because my trial job is only making me fatter when I was already a pretty fat guy...

I wish time would just go faster, So I get to the stage where I completed 5 or 6 subs succesfully so I dont have to fail like a failure anymore...

Oh well atleast the Sleep Optimizer System will come out tomorrow hopefully it will work better than Advanced Stress Relief.

Although Advanced Stress Relief is still a good program.

I hope that this can help you.
https://podcastnotes.org/huberman-lab/ep...erman-lab/

[MrGnome]

Day on 2 Cycle 21:

Welp today sucked, after my sleep I figured out that I had my sub on 6 clicks instead of 7.

I got pretty much the biggest explosions of fears today...

I couldn't do my main task because there was something wrong with the dish washer machine..

And I'm pretty much forced to use HOWL next instead of aura of love because my trial job is only making me fatter when I was already a pretty fat guy...

I wish time would just go faster, So I get to the stage where I completed 5 or 6 subs succesfully so I dont have to fail like a failure anymore...

Oh well atleast the Sleep Optimizer System will come out tomorrow hopefully it will work better than Advanced Stress Relief.

Although Advanced Stress Relief is still a good program.

I hope that this can help you.
https://podcastnotes.org/huberman-lab/ep...erman-lab/

Thanks, I will check it out.