10-17-2017, 04:49 PM
Hey peoples,
So I'm on day 2 of AM6 and felt I should start a journal. I have no idea how often I'm going to be updating, but probably definitely no less than once every two weeks, quite possibly more.
As of my starting point: I'm slightly above average in terms of confidence, though this is a confidence only developed over the last few years, and my past is a severe mess when it comes to all that. Sick, weak, lazy, self-conscious kid, bullied, etc etc. I still fight with some of that crap on a regular basis.
I get regular feedback that I have grown, that I am better than I feel I am, having attractive women in my life, and good friends, yet I still always feel more or less anxiety, especially around others. I tend to be quiet, and though I always deal better with conflict than I tend expect myself to, I tend to shy away from it. I go through periods of being excessively quiet, I'm not as funny as I'd like to be, and people often don't listen to me, or even seem to hear me, except on occasion where timing allows me to step up.
I know I could do a lot better. I have had short periods of time where I'm just on fire, people look up to me, and I'm on top of everything. I want that to be my average day.
I'm also in the artistic world to some degree, playing music and all.
I have no idea if I'll respond well to this program or not, how quickly or slowly. I would neither be surprised if in a week's time I'm just climbing up on stage at comedy night and being an all star natural, or if this ends up being a rough ride, leaving me with little improvement, with no choice to do several re-runs.
Hey we'll see!
I plan on running Grow Taller after these 6.5 months, which is right after I turn 24. Take advantage of that last growth period, though I do believe growing is possible beyond 25, though difficult. I hope to start an actually useful journal for that one, too!
All my best, love the community here!
So I'm on day 2 of AM6 and felt I should start a journal. I have no idea how often I'm going to be updating, but probably definitely no less than once every two weeks, quite possibly more.
As of my starting point: I'm slightly above average in terms of confidence, though this is a confidence only developed over the last few years, and my past is a severe mess when it comes to all that. Sick, weak, lazy, self-conscious kid, bullied, etc etc. I still fight with some of that crap on a regular basis.
I get regular feedback that I have grown, that I am better than I feel I am, having attractive women in my life, and good friends, yet I still always feel more or less anxiety, especially around others. I tend to be quiet, and though I always deal better with conflict than I tend expect myself to, I tend to shy away from it. I go through periods of being excessively quiet, I'm not as funny as I'd like to be, and people often don't listen to me, or even seem to hear me, except on occasion where timing allows me to step up.
I know I could do a lot better. I have had short periods of time where I'm just on fire, people look up to me, and I'm on top of everything. I want that to be my average day.
I'm also in the artistic world to some degree, playing music and all.
I have no idea if I'll respond well to this program or not, how quickly or slowly. I would neither be surprised if in a week's time I'm just climbing up on stage at comedy night and being an all star natural, or if this ends up being a rough ride, leaving me with little improvement, with no choice to do several re-runs.
Hey we'll see!
I plan on running Grow Taller after these 6.5 months, which is right after I turn 24. Take advantage of that last growth period, though I do believe growing is possible beyond 25, though difficult. I hope to start an actually useful journal for that one, too!
All my best, love the community here!