05-13-2015, 09:54 AM
Alright today is May 13th, turned 27 today.
i finished stage 3 midday on the 10th, this is my stage 4 day 3 entry
as far as end of tage 3, i see some road rage rearing again. I gotta learn to let go. Even today (13th) some woman didnt stop to turn at a red light almost hit her car as she was swerving like a dumbass through lanes
surprisingly that came out more pg 13 than i was originally gonna post about her in my head, but I'm tryna release the hate towards here. I mean i almost crashed into this woman on my birthday and spilled my food
but looking back on it now, it was such a waste of energy to let anyone fill my heart with malice like that. Oh well, stage 4 definitely helping me find some balance.
stage 3 was definitely a sharpening, losing more of my ego andjust being free in myself. RSD material is gold for this, i hope its ok im posting links, but these ones really helped me consciously process a lot of things on become an alpha male
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMnOZ9XRxZY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-27aYpgJoIM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAoqvXUG7WQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1LQs7NbTOs
and if you want one on female psychology this one will blow your mind:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UCnCkR-pk4
the first one are just on freedom and accepting yourself, awesome material. last one is on how women become attracted and how to tell the difference in the two types, and how to play it
also forex wise, ran into some problems. the group i was in made some bad calls, still my fault for anything.
i had an interview today, went well. I should get a call back today or tomorrow, the guy really liked me. im gonna keep doing forex on the side and build my account for a couple months. Before I'd risk too much or be greedy tryna make more on a trade cause i was trading to make sure i could pay bills. When i lost, i lost big
now im gonna build my account safely, and a bit slower, then make sure what i can safely withdraw weekly while still growing my account is something i can live well on. I dunno if ive mentioned it before, but im wrking on leaving the country
im black and theyre killing us out here. even in illinois theyre banning black people's concealed weapons permits even if theyre fully qualified with no criminal background, its a huge lawsuit against it now
if you havent noticed, obama also nationalized the police force. were turning into a police state, im not sticking around for the shit to get worse. I suggest everyone do the same
Again today's my 27th birthday, learned a lot, im more serious about life than ever now. I'm gonna chill and grind for a minute and dip. It one of my homegirl's birthdays too so im heading out with her and some other friends this weekend
its been a while since ive been out, im gonna go sober. I dont wanna drink and develop my personality around that state of mind. Im still tryna work on my success with women, so i dont want liquor slowing me down. ive never been able to, i always wanted liquid courage, but i think AM6 makes for a better substitue
ive also started a 90 day reset, no porn, I used to be bad with that shit. like 20 videos open and purely for quick stimulation, thinking back that shit was dark
only 4 days in but i feel better already.
im thinking what to right, but ive got nothing. Im at peace right now with my life, right where I am. Most of all i learned to be thankful for what i didnt like about myself, because it helped me want to develop. Bt i also must let go of the not liking, and most of all be thankful for the growth and focus forward
i have self worth issues at times, still working on it. But today, at the milestone that is 27, even though with some financial setback and losing thousands, even being single, and without a job. (I smiled when i said that). I know I have the power to still make all my bills, make more than ever with forex, and get all the girls i want. On the way down, I learned the tricks to go up. More like I remembered the tricks up a,d learned how to avoid the trips back down
ima spend a little time alone today. i like reflecting on birthdays as milestones. im really liking stage 4, its soothing
Later guys
i finished stage 3 midday on the 10th, this is my stage 4 day 3 entry
as far as end of tage 3, i see some road rage rearing again. I gotta learn to let go. Even today (13th) some woman didnt stop to turn at a red light almost hit her car as she was swerving like a dumbass through lanes
surprisingly that came out more pg 13 than i was originally gonna post about her in my head, but I'm tryna release the hate towards here. I mean i almost crashed into this woman on my birthday and spilled my food
but looking back on it now, it was such a waste of energy to let anyone fill my heart with malice like that. Oh well, stage 4 definitely helping me find some balance.
stage 3 was definitely a sharpening, losing more of my ego andjust being free in myself. RSD material is gold for this, i hope its ok im posting links, but these ones really helped me consciously process a lot of things on become an alpha male
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMnOZ9XRxZY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-27aYpgJoIM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAoqvXUG7WQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1LQs7NbTOs
and if you want one on female psychology this one will blow your mind:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UCnCkR-pk4
the first one are just on freedom and accepting yourself, awesome material. last one is on how women become attracted and how to tell the difference in the two types, and how to play it
also forex wise, ran into some problems. the group i was in made some bad calls, still my fault for anything.
i had an interview today, went well. I should get a call back today or tomorrow, the guy really liked me. im gonna keep doing forex on the side and build my account for a couple months. Before I'd risk too much or be greedy tryna make more on a trade cause i was trading to make sure i could pay bills. When i lost, i lost big
now im gonna build my account safely, and a bit slower, then make sure what i can safely withdraw weekly while still growing my account is something i can live well on. I dunno if ive mentioned it before, but im wrking on leaving the country
im black and theyre killing us out here. even in illinois theyre banning black people's concealed weapons permits even if theyre fully qualified with no criminal background, its a huge lawsuit against it now
if you havent noticed, obama also nationalized the police force. were turning into a police state, im not sticking around for the shit to get worse. I suggest everyone do the same
Again today's my 27th birthday, learned a lot, im more serious about life than ever now. I'm gonna chill and grind for a minute and dip. It one of my homegirl's birthdays too so im heading out with her and some other friends this weekend
its been a while since ive been out, im gonna go sober. I dont wanna drink and develop my personality around that state of mind. Im still tryna work on my success with women, so i dont want liquor slowing me down. ive never been able to, i always wanted liquid courage, but i think AM6 makes for a better substitue
ive also started a 90 day reset, no porn, I used to be bad with that shit. like 20 videos open and purely for quick stimulation, thinking back that shit was dark
only 4 days in but i feel better already.
im thinking what to right, but ive got nothing. Im at peace right now with my life, right where I am. Most of all i learned to be thankful for what i didnt like about myself, because it helped me want to develop. Bt i also must let go of the not liking, and most of all be thankful for the growth and focus forward
i have self worth issues at times, still working on it. But today, at the milestone that is 27, even though with some financial setback and losing thousands, even being single, and without a job. (I smiled when i said that). I know I have the power to still make all my bills, make more than ever with forex, and get all the girls i want. On the way down, I learned the tricks to go up. More like I remembered the tricks up a,d learned how to avoid the trips back down
ima spend a little time alone today. i like reflecting on birthdays as milestones. im really liking stage 4, its soothing
Later guys
