05-08-2015, 06:17 PM
day 31 stage 3
its funny how i didnt notice a lot of changes with stage 3 until i got above 300 hours in, it makes sense for differences to be more pronounced with more xposure though
im feeling a fire now to get all areas of my life together. most of my life i worked on 1 or 2 at a time to my detriment, i gotta get bette with time management so i can become better
still getting very impatient and frustrated. still trya figure out if thats completely good, and strike my balnce between, in book terms "The Power of Now" vs "48 Laws of Power". i know a lot of the stages smooth out edges from previous ones
i feel more intense than ever now. i dance when i drive all the time, its how i enjoy my way to where im going. now i care even less about people staring (they stare a lot, i go HAM lol), and i move more intensely
im getting more and more comfotable with the grey area between my Gentleman and my Wolf. I had the thought today "where in the spectrum should i fall, i exhibit contrasting behavior all the time"
i realized why does it matter exactly what i choose to be, just BE! Different circumstances call for different parts of my personality, its a range, and i should free myself to act through any version of me through the spectrum of my personality
also meditated today for the first time in a while. I wanna work on my presence so I know to trust my heart in situations. I'd always have initial reactions, then overthink things logically, then be confused as to what i should choose
i know now the first is usually whats in my heart, but can also differ based on situations. Thissounds weird, but I know ive gotten smarter. i think cause of the subs im able to move out of my head easier and evaluate things from different angles more
i have big breakthroughs on my own development pretty much every week now. Just becoming the best version of myself
Thats all for now guys, my birthday is next week May 13th, turning 27. The person im becoming is definitely the best gift i couldve gotten myself. gonna head to a hotel on the beach tomorrow with the fam for mothers day
im gonna holla at some chicks cause i should. Just had the thought, now im committing to it personally and declaring it here. Hold me to it guys, ill come back with either stories of failure or success, either way writing the story is the part im gonna enjoy
Peace Beasts Keep Killing Shit!
its funny how i didnt notice a lot of changes with stage 3 until i got above 300 hours in, it makes sense for differences to be more pronounced with more xposure though
im feeling a fire now to get all areas of my life together. most of my life i worked on 1 or 2 at a time to my detriment, i gotta get bette with time management so i can become better
still getting very impatient and frustrated. still trya figure out if thats completely good, and strike my balnce between, in book terms "The Power of Now" vs "48 Laws of Power". i know a lot of the stages smooth out edges from previous ones
i feel more intense than ever now. i dance when i drive all the time, its how i enjoy my way to where im going. now i care even less about people staring (they stare a lot, i go HAM lol), and i move more intensely
im getting more and more comfotable with the grey area between my Gentleman and my Wolf. I had the thought today "where in the spectrum should i fall, i exhibit contrasting behavior all the time"
i realized why does it matter exactly what i choose to be, just BE! Different circumstances call for different parts of my personality, its a range, and i should free myself to act through any version of me through the spectrum of my personality
also meditated today for the first time in a while. I wanna work on my presence so I know to trust my heart in situations. I'd always have initial reactions, then overthink things logically, then be confused as to what i should choose
i know now the first is usually whats in my heart, but can also differ based on situations. Thissounds weird, but I know ive gotten smarter. i think cause of the subs im able to move out of my head easier and evaluate things from different angles more
i have big breakthroughs on my own development pretty much every week now. Just becoming the best version of myself
Thats all for now guys, my birthday is next week May 13th, turning 27. The person im becoming is definitely the best gift i couldve gotten myself. gonna head to a hotel on the beach tomorrow with the fam for mothers day
im gonna holla at some chicks cause i should. Just had the thought, now im committing to it personally and declaring it here. Hold me to it guys, ill come back with either stories of failure or success, either way writing the story is the part im gonna enjoy
Peace Beasts Keep Killing Shit!
