03-24-2015, 05:29 AM
(03-23-2015, 03:19 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(03-23-2015, 01:44 PM)Natious Wrote: Only these extremely low feelings like desperation, anger, rage, hate, guilt, shame. But nothing that would feel like I'm letting go, sadness would be an upgrade, I just don't know how to reach it.
I know how this is, though for me it's currently apathy. I'm vastly approaching a point of "no return" financially here. May end up homeless in the next month, and just don't care. It's like I've lost the will to live. I don't WANT to die, but I don't WANT to live (in the "alpha/rule the world" kind of way) either.
Weird shit.
It's like you finished my last post, because this would be the second part of it. I also have apathy, but it seems like more of a constant state and doesn't change much recently. If anything I want to start wanting to live and be motivated about living. Good luck bouncing back from the financial low point. Reminds me when I lived on my colleague's couch for 2 months and then on another's for a month.
