My healing journey - E2, Cold showers, Root chakra meditation

[Greenduck]

E2 brought me to possible the worst day in my life today. I felt like a heroine addict on cold turkey for 6-7 hours and right there it felt like it would never end, no matter how much I tried to tell myself that it was going to pass. . It was horrible. All my old traumas came up and felt so real that I just couldn’t hide. One terrible one where I had a bad trip after smoking cannabis for some time, where I really lost it one evening. I was terrified of my life, constantly for hours. I don’t want to relive this but I guess it’s the only way of processing it. I still feel like sh*t but kind of have gotten out on the other side. My body hurts. My legs have been shaking and I had a fever. Let’s see how I feel tomorrow, I’m exhausted.