09-14-2018, 12:57 PM
Frequent updates right now but you have to live with that 
I noticed something new. I look forward to exercise, and start to be able to feel in my body what I need it. I'm more connected to my body (i guess this is hard to imagine for someone who hasn't experienced it, but I coulnd't feel my body for a while). I usually go to the gym and work with a punching bag with hits and kicks from what I have learned from going to my Muay Thai practise. And before I just went there because I knew that I would feel better from doing it, but doing it was just a pain in the ass. Can't explain why really, it was just uncomfortable and didn't feel like I had all the power that I should have. But now... I feel it's back. The kicks are harder, so are the punches. The moves more coordinated. I sit here in my chair in front of the computer but I can replicate the feeling in my body of how it feels. That feels...f*cking amazing to have it back. I have so much frustration and anger that have been stuck in my body that I couldn't let out but now I feel like a vessel is starting to open up and I am ready to UNLEASH THE POWER like a f*cking hulk. Come here f*ckers and I will smash you up and down (just almost kidding). Let's f*cking do this.
I noticed something new. I look forward to exercise, and start to be able to feel in my body what I need it. I'm more connected to my body (i guess this is hard to imagine for someone who hasn't experienced it, but I coulnd't feel my body for a while). I usually go to the gym and work with a punching bag with hits and kicks from what I have learned from going to my Muay Thai practise. And before I just went there because I knew that I would feel better from doing it, but doing it was just a pain in the ass. Can't explain why really, it was just uncomfortable and didn't feel like I had all the power that I should have. But now... I feel it's back. The kicks are harder, so are the punches. The moves more coordinated. I sit here in my chair in front of the computer but I can replicate the feeling in my body of how it feels. That feels...f*cking amazing to have it back. I have so much frustration and anger that have been stuck in my body that I couldn't let out but now I feel like a vessel is starting to open up and I am ready to UNLEASH THE POWER like a f*cking hulk. Come here f*ckers and I will smash you up and down (just almost kidding). Let's f*cking do this.
