09-30-2017, 12:21 PM
Just diving in here to give a update and ask about a specific behavior that I find in myself, and see if anyone can relate to it.
Overall I'm feeling much better. The state of "panic" that I almost lived in all the time has become much better, I'm very much more emotionally calm, I have more energy, can laugh at things and almost function as normal. So this is GREAT. Super huge development, and I am really happy about it!
What is "left" to be done until I can feel that I am fully healed, ergo what I am missing at this moment, is becoming fully in contact with "myself" and my emotions. Right now I feel like I'm 70 % me but still have some cracks that need to be healed. I believe it's stress that need time to heal.
So I'm pretty OK on a emotional basis. But that is just one dimension of well-being (haha bear with me now) , as there is also a "core self" and "emotional self". The core self is what people refer to as "solar plexus chakra" self. And this part is not fully healed. I feel like I don't have my core-confidence that I had before, and I am working on that by doing Wim-Hof (week 6 now) and regular core exercises.
Mentally I am a bit off, and have a hard time to "think" actively, like sit there and do analytical thinking, I just don't have the mental energy for it.
So that's the current status. Overall huge improvements and I almost can't believe that I have managed to get to where I am, from a point where everything felt like it was falling apart, and just being in the moment was dreadful.
Regarding the issue: It's with my mom, who probably is like any other mom, but the problem I have is that I feel how she feel, and feel like I am supposed to do something, like help her feel good or something, but it never work that way. Like her emotions is overwhelming me, and just to make it stop I feel i need to do something about it. But I really have to focus when this happens do not get sucked into it. Before this was no problem. I felt the "dynamic" behind it or what you want to call it, but could shield myself from it, but now when I am not fully emotionally healthy this become a problem sometime and is stressful. Anyone who can relate to this and maybe clarify it for me?
Hope everyone is well!
Overall I'm feeling much better. The state of "panic" that I almost lived in all the time has become much better, I'm very much more emotionally calm, I have more energy, can laugh at things and almost function as normal. So this is GREAT. Super huge development, and I am really happy about it!
What is "left" to be done until I can feel that I am fully healed, ergo what I am missing at this moment, is becoming fully in contact with "myself" and my emotions. Right now I feel like I'm 70 % me but still have some cracks that need to be healed. I believe it's stress that need time to heal.
So I'm pretty OK on a emotional basis. But that is just one dimension of well-being (haha bear with me now) , as there is also a "core self" and "emotional self". The core self is what people refer to as "solar plexus chakra" self. And this part is not fully healed. I feel like I don't have my core-confidence that I had before, and I am working on that by doing Wim-Hof (week 6 now) and regular core exercises.
Mentally I am a bit off, and have a hard time to "think" actively, like sit there and do analytical thinking, I just don't have the mental energy for it.
So that's the current status. Overall huge improvements and I almost can't believe that I have managed to get to where I am, from a point where everything felt like it was falling apart, and just being in the moment was dreadful.
Regarding the issue: It's with my mom, who probably is like any other mom, but the problem I have is that I feel how she feel, and feel like I am supposed to do something, like help her feel good or something, but it never work that way. Like her emotions is overwhelming me, and just to make it stop I feel i need to do something about it. But I really have to focus when this happens do not get sucked into it. Before this was no problem. I felt the "dynamic" behind it or what you want to call it, but could shield myself from it, but now when I am not fully emotionally healthy this become a problem sometime and is stressful. Anyone who can relate to this and maybe clarify it for me?
Hope everyone is well!
