Sometimes I just loose faith in that things will become better and that I will get out of the depression. Mainly to get back who I am mentally and emotionally. The fight is always going and I am fighting every day, and I know that I will make it, and that I have taken myself a long way, but still sometimes I just loose hope for a while.
Today was a pretty hard day, but also a good day. Hard in the manner that I fight with the dizziness and cognitive problems (my mind is kind of constantly racing and I need to consciously slow it down) and all the tension in my neck. I went out to take a run when I felt that like I was going crazy and it kind of felt better afterwards.
Good in the way that I walked out my parents house this morning, the sun was shining, the birds chirping and the grass was green and thick. I could feel it, both the warm grass under my feet, but also the feeling inside of something good, of myself.
Yesterday I drew a graph to remind me keep going and understanding that there is a bigger picture even if I don't see it at all times, and to keep doing what is working as it help me move forward.
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Today was a pretty hard day, but also a good day. Hard in the manner that I fight with the dizziness and cognitive problems (my mind is kind of constantly racing and I need to consciously slow it down) and all the tension in my neck. I went out to take a run when I felt that like I was going crazy and it kind of felt better afterwards.
Good in the way that I walked out my parents house this morning, the sun was shining, the birds chirping and the grass was green and thick. I could feel it, both the warm grass under my feet, but also the feeling inside of something good, of myself.
Yesterday I drew a graph to remind me keep going and understanding that there is a bigger picture even if I don't see it at all times, and to keep doing what is working as it help me move forward.
