IR-lamp not good idea. Made me feel like shit after 10 minutes. However, I may have found the core of the current problem:
My behavior can be described as "acting without thinking" as I didn't had any thinking to resort to. In "being" you both act and you think and you feel. Well, scratch the "think" part and you have me. Felt like being somewhat unconscious about decisions, being able to think through things, understand other people, understand bigger picture, etc. You get the picture...
Anyway, this seems to stem from a tightness on top of my scull. Like a muscular contraction, which made thoughts just a whirr without order, like a spinning washing-machine, where everything you throw in becomes blurry and get mixed up with whatever you had in before. Anyway, by relaxing the top of the head, just like you would do with any other muscle, my thought-arena shows itself again and my existence become not merely a reactive hell, but can reside do the conscious stroll that it should be.
Edit:
As the thinking seems to originate from the top of the head (where it is said our belief system is located) subliminals should probably affect this part, and if the individual fights against what is said, like a muscle that contracts to protect from a collision, so would the "mind-muscle" contract in the same manner, which I guess is the same as resistance, creating mind-fog and whatnot.
My behavior can be described as "acting without thinking" as I didn't had any thinking to resort to. In "being" you both act and you think and you feel. Well, scratch the "think" part and you have me. Felt like being somewhat unconscious about decisions, being able to think through things, understand other people, understand bigger picture, etc. You get the picture...
Anyway, this seems to stem from a tightness on top of my scull. Like a muscular contraction, which made thoughts just a whirr without order, like a spinning washing-machine, where everything you throw in becomes blurry and get mixed up with whatever you had in before. Anyway, by relaxing the top of the head, just like you would do with any other muscle, my thought-arena shows itself again and my existence become not merely a reactive hell, but can reside do the conscious stroll that it should be.
Edit:
As the thinking seems to originate from the top of the head (where it is said our belief system is located) subliminals should probably affect this part, and if the individual fights against what is said, like a muscle that contracts to protect from a collision, so would the "mind-muscle" contract in the same manner, which I guess is the same as resistance, creating mind-fog and whatnot.
