3 days have passed since I began to write this journal and have happened some significant changes.
The bad feelings I had last week disappeared, and were replaced with a feeling of calm and tranquility.
I´m a passive-aggresive and serious guy and in the last days I became an aggresive guy (without the passive) with women. I´ll explain that:
I'm more teasing with women but while I'm teasing them I say some aggresive and hurtful things that make them angry, sad or disappointed with me. The weirdest thing is that I don't feel any guilt of shame about it.
Other than that, today a beauty French girl friend of mine who I'm not interested, surprinsingly told me that she wanted to hang out with me. :O
I feel sort of free of saying what I´m thinking, but in the process I'm negative and I complain a lot. I don't know if it's because all the negativity that's inside me is emerging or what?
Sometimes I feel some anxiety and I'm just one click to buy AM6 with my credit card. And there's a struggle between my "angel" and my "demon", like in cartoons. The angel says "if I do that, I won't have the money to pay it" and the demon says "Buy it and with the change in my personality I'll find the way to pay it".
I feel tired and very hungry after finishing the day. And the smile in my face is getting bigger every morning.
The bad feelings I had last week disappeared, and were replaced with a feeling of calm and tranquility.
I´m a passive-aggresive and serious guy and in the last days I became an aggresive guy (without the passive) with women. I´ll explain that:
I'm more teasing with women but while I'm teasing them I say some aggresive and hurtful things that make them angry, sad or disappointed with me. The weirdest thing is that I don't feel any guilt of shame about it.
Other than that, today a beauty French girl friend of mine who I'm not interested, surprinsingly told me that she wanted to hang out with me. :O
I feel sort of free of saying what I´m thinking, but in the process I'm negative and I complain a lot. I don't know if it's because all the negativity that's inside me is emerging or what?
Sometimes I feel some anxiety and I'm just one click to buy AM6 with my credit card. And there's a struggle between my "angel" and my "demon", like in cartoons. The angel says "if I do that, I won't have the money to pay it" and the demon says "Buy it and with the change in my personality I'll find the way to pay it".
I feel tired and very hungry after finishing the day. And the smile in my face is getting bigger every morning.
