02-15-2013, 01:12 PM
Ok just finished day 6, woohoo! only 187 to go.
I can't really say i've noticed too much so far, which i expect is to be...... expected. Although i must say i've been feeling a more general feeling of comfort talking to people. With people, most noticably at shop checkout. i would usually just do the polite spiel, "hi, how are you? good, how are you? good thanks." Even with something basic like that, i still usually feel slightly uncomfortable and not speaking with my proper strong voice. I feel more comfortable now, use a clear strong voice and even feel like engaging in conversation a bit more. It just seems like not such a big deal anymore. Don't know if this is because of the sub, or because I’m listening to the sub, so I’m allowing myself, or giving myself permission to be more confident. Either way, I guess it’s the sub
My comfort being myself around other people is my main goal to achieve with AM. I just always feel so fustrated being shy and not allowing my personality out, because i know and truly believe (i guess not subconciously) i am an awesome person and have a great personality, energy and humor. i love the person i am around my friends. Just not many other people get to see it.
I think I finally got my speaker set up sorted. I bought a set of computer speakers, Logitech Z320, that claim to be able to handle 20khz, so I’m not fussing so much about whether the ultrasonic is actually playing properly anymore.
Just thought I’d mention I’m 20, and an electrician by the way, I just broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years recently, which I had been procrastinating a lot about but I feel so much better for doing it and taking control of my life. That wasn’t because of any subs though, I just finally felt like I would be unhappy for the rest of my life if I didn’t do anything now. And now that I’m a free man once more I’m ready to wreak some havoc with my newly developing alphaness
I turn 21 in july, which isn’t such a big deal here in Australia because our legal age of doing whatever you want is 18, but it’s still considered an important milestone, by which time I’m hoping to be feeling like a changed man.
Anyway first proper journal entry done, woohoo! If only I would have been able to write essays with this ease in school, I would have been unstoppable.
I can't really say i've noticed too much so far, which i expect is to be...... expected. Although i must say i've been feeling a more general feeling of comfort talking to people. With people, most noticably at shop checkout. i would usually just do the polite spiel, "hi, how are you? good, how are you? good thanks." Even with something basic like that, i still usually feel slightly uncomfortable and not speaking with my proper strong voice. I feel more comfortable now, use a clear strong voice and even feel like engaging in conversation a bit more. It just seems like not such a big deal anymore. Don't know if this is because of the sub, or because I’m listening to the sub, so I’m allowing myself, or giving myself permission to be more confident. Either way, I guess it’s the sub
My comfort being myself around other people is my main goal to achieve with AM. I just always feel so fustrated being shy and not allowing my personality out, because i know and truly believe (i guess not subconciously) i am an awesome person and have a great personality, energy and humor. i love the person i am around my friends. Just not many other people get to see it.
I think I finally got my speaker set up sorted. I bought a set of computer speakers, Logitech Z320, that claim to be able to handle 20khz, so I’m not fussing so much about whether the ultrasonic is actually playing properly anymore.
Just thought I’d mention I’m 20, and an electrician by the way, I just broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years recently, which I had been procrastinating a lot about but I feel so much better for doing it and taking control of my life. That wasn’t because of any subs though, I just finally felt like I would be unhappy for the rest of my life if I didn’t do anything now. And now that I’m a free man once more I’m ready to wreak some havoc with my newly developing alphaness
I turn 21 in july, which isn’t such a big deal here in Australia because our legal age of doing whatever you want is 18, but it’s still considered an important milestone, by which time I’m hoping to be feeling like a changed man.
Anyway first proper journal entry done, woohoo! If only I would have been able to write essays with this ease in school, I would have been unstoppable.
