My ASC Journal - Conquering anxiety & feeling extremely confident

[Shannon]

@Shannon Thans for the thoughtful answer.

You don't have issues with trust in yourself.  You have a common very basic insecurity that a lot of guys have, which can be boiled down to a fear that when it comes to women, you are not good enough.  

Agree to an extent. However. It is more than that, an irrational fear.
Men get over this fear through Game. I have friends who are objectively not better looking than me, not taller than me. (Ok, they have more charmisma, true that). And they get with and feel worthy of the kind of women that I do not feel yet worthy.

Day 7

• Odd observation, but it seems like I ASC is causing me more frequent morning erections. Maybe some repressed stuff in the subconscious dissolving.
  
• mild reduction in general anxiety levels throught the day.
  

All fear is irrational, because fear is an emotion, which is mutually exclusive to reason by its very nature.  And I disagree.  Most men get damaged through "game".  Then they come here and try to heal and repair that damage and find better ways to get laid.  Most guys don't have the personality to increase self confidence and self esteem through game, which is why so many fail.  It's the failures you never hear about, because everyone is focused on the winners.  Just like with gambling.

Feeling good enough isn't going to be improved by "game".  I guarantee you that.  Game is just that - a game people play to get laid.  It is, by definition, a social experiment in mutual deception and manipulation.  Feeling good enough comes from understanding that you are the one who decides what "good enough" is, not someone else.  As long as you are trying to listen to what someone else says is good enough, you will almost certainly never believe yourself to be good enough.  As long as you compare yourself to someone else to determine whether you are good enough, you will always find someone better than you to compare yourself to and say, "See?  They're better than me, I'm not good enough."  Only when you turn inside yourself and define "good enough" yourself will you start feeling good enough, and this is as it should be, because "good enough" is defined by YOU.

And these guys who get the hotties you want, they do that in part because they are either have decided they are good enough to have her, or they are very good liars, to both themselves and her.  It is very hard to hide a belief that one is inferior from a woman because it comes out in your subconscious body language, which wants to tell the truth about what you think.  Faking that successfully means you're a very damaged person.  You don't want to be able to fake that.  What you want is to be telling the truth subconsciously, and have that truth be, "Regardless of what you look like, I am more than good enough to date you, have sex with you, whatever I am willing to do.  The question is, are you worth my time?"

And to get to that point, ironically, you'll need to understand something that usually makes guys lose interest in the 10's and a lot of the 9's too, which is... her shit stinks just like yours does.  She is just another human.  The difference between her and you is only three things:

1. She is female.
   
2. She is more symmetrical than most females.
   
3. She is treated by guys like you and your friends in such a way that 99 times out of 100, she will have developed into a woman who is either so full of herself and high maintenance that she's not worth it, so damaged that she's not worth it, or both.
   

I used to be a modeling photographer.  I worked with these women a lot.  And after years of that, I'm happy to date what most guys would consider 7's and 8's, even though I can get 9's and 10's if I really want to enough.  Unless you're still in the stage where the only thing that matters is what other guys think of you, you're going to have a limit to the kind of crap you'll put up with to get a 9 or a 10, and that will naturally rule out a lot of those 9's and 10's for most guys who are of the belief that they are worthy of having such a woman if they want one.  The result is that you are no longer impressed by her, no longer necessarily interested, and definitely not desperate or willing to put up with her crap.  And THAT is what attracts her: you're different, you're not a boy or a sheep, and you can't be controlled by her.  You are immune to her looks.  That drives them nuts, because in most cases, looks is all those women have to feel good about themselves with.  Because like you, they are usually insecure, afraid of not being good enough and emotionally damaged by guys who try to fuck them for sport, just to impress their friends.

That's why they become damaged and crazy.  They may hide it well, but the more attractive she is, the crazier she will be for that reason.  It's like a law of the universe, how accurate I have seen that be.  They're human, and they have human needs, but guys who want to sport fuck them don't take that into account, and they cause these women that sort of damage, which makes them crazy.  In an effort to avoid being hurt, they start becoming really hard to get for most guys.  

PUA tells you it's because she doesn't have enough time to deal with all the interest she gets, and she's trying to protect her reputation.  And that is true, but the real reason is never mentioned by PUA.  The real reason is, she is human, and has emotions, and has emotional sensitivities and vulnerabilities and needs.  These guys who want to sport fuck her don't fulfill those emotional needs, they cause her emotional pain and suffering and damage.  So she creates that bitch shield to defend her emotions and protect her reputation and keep her social status and prevent disease and unwanted pregnancy.  Common sense, but most of that is completely missed by PUA.

You really don't want hot girls.  You want to impress your friends with being able to fuck hot girls.  And your genes want you to have babies with hot girls.  But you can't know if she's compatible with you just based on how she looks.  And trying to have a relationship or sex with an incompatible woman is a recipe for disaster.  Trust me.

In the end, remember that the only person who can decide if you are good enough is you, and you can never be accurate comparing yourself to anyone else but the you who you were yesterday.  I have said this before... if you are a better person than the person you were yesterday, you are making progress, and that is good enough.

When I'm listening to the masked track, I do it through headphones connected to my docking station.
With Windows volume set at 20 - 25, I can hear it very loudly.
That is also happening when playing Youtube music.
Wondering if that is ok. I feel like going over 40 - 50 (out of 100) could cause ear damage.

You don't need it loud.  Play it at a comfortable volume.  This is something a lot of people do when they get started with subliminals; they fear that if they can't consciously hear it, it's not really there so they try to increase the volume.  The correct volume is where you would comfortably listen to the masking track if it were not subliminal at all.