Mischief's Journey Through DMSI 3.2 A & B

[Have at ye]

Post Morten Report: I felt rather horny on the drive home but it has subsided now that I am home. It's sexual frustration, especially since what I was wanting to happen, didn't happen (activation of the sniper and build up of the aura). Also wanting to watch porn and masturbate right now. I won't do it. I haven't masturbated for about a month now and will not give in. Thinking things through this had to be self sabotage. . . .and that self sabotage was the return of an ex-girlfriend in my life. That woman is the past and I need to push her back there. "S" is what is in front of me and the universe is giving me the opportunity to make the most of it. But this also goes back to the universe will give you exactly what you want, and then send you a distraction to see if you will screw it up. All is not lost. I just need to focus on what is in front of me and keep the past in the past.

Hey there.

Your ex situation reminds me of something I've experienced recently. About a week (or two?) ago, my ex invited me to a little get-together she was throwing. She, as per the usual, began pretending everything's fine, and asked me how I'm doing on the female front, told her bits and pieces, and what she did in response - as she's always been wont to do when her ego would feel in danger - was try and drag out past stuff to try and sabotage my self-esteem woman-wise, and then proceeded to whine what a terrible person I am and how I've never appreciated her to one of her orbiters. Long story short, afterwards she tried to seduce me into sex, but I said goodbye and went home, because enough is enough.

This did lead me to certain important conclusions I've outlined in my journal, I believe.

Now I think she's trying to avoid me. Good riddance.