Day 15 Midday Report: I finally had the chance to meet up with the lady I like and we chatted for about 30 minutes to catch up on things. The perplexing thing I have is the sniper didn’t work on her and we were very close to each other. The anti-sniper has been turned off in 3.2 so I don’t understand it.
Post Morten Report: I felt rather horny on the drive home but it has subsided now that I am home. It's sexual frustration, especially since what I was wanting to happen, didn't happen (activation of the sniper and build up of the aura). Also wanting to watch porn and masturbate right now. I won't do it. I haven't masturbated for about a month now and will not give in. Thinking things through this had to be self sabotage. . . .and that self sabotage was the return of an ex-girlfriend in my life. That woman is the past and I need to push her back there. "S" is what is in front of me and the universe is giving me the opportunity to make the most of it. But this also goes back to the universe will give you exactly what you want, and then send you a distraction to see if you will screw it up. All is not lost. I just need to focus on what is in front of me and keep the past in the past.
Throughout the day I didn't feel as effective. I got a few looks from ladies but it wasn't like the previous days. Things got a little better as I was leaving the office. A lady (4/10) was in the elevator with me and when I opened her in conversation, she reacted very enthusiastically and was talking a mile a minute (celebrity effect).
I'll abandon the single morning loop and stay with afternoon concentration of loops. I run the loops through my iPhone and headphones. It didn't dawn on me until now to put my phone in airplane mode so I will not get interrupted. Aww well, you live and learn. The subconscious is resisting and it threw one hell of a curve ball at me today. Four loops right now and four more tonight as I sleep.
Post Morten Report: I felt rather horny on the drive home but it has subsided now that I am home. It's sexual frustration, especially since what I was wanting to happen, didn't happen (activation of the sniper and build up of the aura). Also wanting to watch porn and masturbate right now. I won't do it. I haven't masturbated for about a month now and will not give in. Thinking things through this had to be self sabotage. . . .and that self sabotage was the return of an ex-girlfriend in my life. That woman is the past and I need to push her back there. "S" is what is in front of me and the universe is giving me the opportunity to make the most of it. But this also goes back to the universe will give you exactly what you want, and then send you a distraction to see if you will screw it up. All is not lost. I just need to focus on what is in front of me and keep the past in the past.
Throughout the day I didn't feel as effective. I got a few looks from ladies but it wasn't like the previous days. Things got a little better as I was leaving the office. A lady (4/10) was in the elevator with me and when I opened her in conversation, she reacted very enthusiastically and was talking a mile a minute (celebrity effect).
I'll abandon the single morning loop and stay with afternoon concentration of loops. I run the loops through my iPhone and headphones. It didn't dawn on me until now to put my phone in airplane mode so I will not get interrupted. Aww well, you live and learn. The subconscious is resisting and it threw one hell of a curve ball at me today. Four loops right now and four more tonight as I sleep.
