10-25-2014, 01:21 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-25-2014, 01:22 PM by Mystic Pymp.)
Day 55
The strange week
Today I had a chance to look back at the last week and emotional roller-coaster it brought. It was truly strange experience, one I've never experienced before. I want to summarize it while I still have it fresh in my memory.
My mood was changing quite rapidly, from total depression and feeling like s**t to feeling like master of the world. These are extremes of course and switches weren't so severe, but were very noticeable. They were also very unpleasant, making me often tired. My nails also got a hit, going back to pre-LTU state. It was a hard ride and it may still continue (hopefully not), but from what I saw it was very much worth it.
When I was out socializing, it was all very great. I've had a lot of fun, I was talkative and only rarely would I be old, awkward self standing away from others. I've met many new people and I socialized with them quite easily. That said I always had someone familiar like and anchor to ground me in the situation and not feel uncomfortable. I was also much more physical with people. The only problem is all of it was happening after some alcohol and without it changes are much less profound, if any at all. I wish I was like that all the time and that those blocks alcohol removes temporarily will be undone permanently one day.
There were also many small things, random chances and accidents both positive and negative, but in the end they all made me believe changes are happening and in the good direction. Also I tried tapping today and even though it looks silly it's actually quite good relaxation technique. I used something like that in the past anchored with hypnotic triggers, but with time its strength decreased. I'm curious if tapping will work in the long run or in extreme situations. If so then I'll do some research and maybe I'll start using it to remove my blocks if it's as effective as people say. For now it's just a curiosity for me, but so were subliminals a year ago or so, and hypnosis even earlier.
The strange week
Today I had a chance to look back at the last week and emotional roller-coaster it brought. It was truly strange experience, one I've never experienced before. I want to summarize it while I still have it fresh in my memory.
My mood was changing quite rapidly, from total depression and feeling like s**t to feeling like master of the world. These are extremes of course and switches weren't so severe, but were very noticeable. They were also very unpleasant, making me often tired. My nails also got a hit, going back to pre-LTU state. It was a hard ride and it may still continue (hopefully not), but from what I saw it was very much worth it.
When I was out socializing, it was all very great. I've had a lot of fun, I was talkative and only rarely would I be old, awkward self standing away from others. I've met many new people and I socialized with them quite easily. That said I always had someone familiar like and anchor to ground me in the situation and not feel uncomfortable. I was also much more physical with people. The only problem is all of it was happening after some alcohol and without it changes are much less profound, if any at all. I wish I was like that all the time and that those blocks alcohol removes temporarily will be undone permanently one day.
There were also many small things, random chances and accidents both positive and negative, but in the end they all made me believe changes are happening and in the good direction. Also I tried tapping today and even though it looks silly it's actually quite good relaxation technique. I used something like that in the past anchored with hypnotic triggers, but with time its strength decreased. I'm curious if tapping will work in the long run or in extreme situations. If so then I'll do some research and maybe I'll start using it to remove my blocks if it's as effective as people say. For now it's just a curiosity for me, but so were subliminals a year ago or so, and hypnosis even earlier.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
