Magnus' journal

[Magnus]

thanks for the feedback guys. Ill have to really have a think through what the best approach is here.

I do know I think about women so much because of a very deeply ingrained fear of abandonment which leads me to search women out to try and fill that hole that I can't full myself. Unfortunately this is one thing alpha so far hasn't helped me with. I'm starting some work by Susan Anderson around this to work on it on a conscious level until Shannon has had the time to develop a sub specifically for it.

One thing I've noticed so far on stage 5 is I'm speaking my mind a lot more and not caring about what others think. I wouldn't say i'm extroverted yet but i'm slowly getting there. I'm also noticing people praising me a lot more but at the same time it doesn't get to my head so much. Something cool happened the other night as well my mum congratulated me on my weight loss and it was the first time I had ever seen in her eyes that she was really proud

The only bad thing I've had from stage 5 is that I talk about myself to much but at the same time don't care that I do if that makes sense