Magnus' journal

[Magnus]

Thanks Shannon and Patti. Yes the baby is physically OK just scared and alone, I know its a dark room with a cot and a bed and a small window. Ill have to give that one a go thanks Shannon I can actually see that as helping a lot. I tried at first to turn the light on but still had a feeling of being all alone so ill have to add a comforting atmosphere and a really comforting person to it as well as seeing the child grow older. I'm pretty sure this one centers in around abandonment and is a very deeply held fear that has been hidden for a loooong time.

I've also realized I have to stop being so hard on myself. I am being hard on myself, literally beating myself up inside around my eating and my life at present and not having the motivation to do anything. I have realized i'm at a tough point I am still grieving, I am going through AM which is going to be tough and through that i'm doing well at work. I have to cut myself a little slack and not let others get to me either as they have no idea what I am going through at present.