02-21-2012, 04:13 PM
So i'm trying to figure out exactly what fear comes up before and after I have seen my ex to help me with the future and ridding of all my insecurities.
The funny thing was I was completely comfortable when I was with her. Wasn't trying to do or be anything just being myself. I wasn't in my head at all and in fact was speaking a whole lot at all. I actually had zero anxiety when I was with her. When I left and for the days after that was when the anxiety kicked in. I'm still not sure what caused it but it is something I want to deal with. There's a few things I'm thinking it could possibly be
1. Fear of abandonment kicking in
2. Not feeling good enough (I'm starting to doubt this one as I would have thought that would have got me trying to brag and prove things to her)
3. Anxiety over the anxiety itself. Because of the shear amount of anxiety that appeared during and after my relationship with her its possible i'm getting anxious about that anxiety returning
4. The anxiety is only related to the subs
The funny thing was I was completely comfortable when I was with her. Wasn't trying to do or be anything just being myself. I wasn't in my head at all and in fact was speaking a whole lot at all. I actually had zero anxiety when I was with her. When I left and for the days after that was when the anxiety kicked in. I'm still not sure what caused it but it is something I want to deal with. There's a few things I'm thinking it could possibly be
1. Fear of abandonment kicking in
2. Not feeling good enough (I'm starting to doubt this one as I would have thought that would have got me trying to brag and prove things to her)
3. Anxiety over the anxiety itself. Because of the shear amount of anxiety that appeared during and after my relationship with her its possible i'm getting anxious about that anxiety returning
4. The anxiety is only related to the subs
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
