11-24-2011, 03:12 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-24-2011, 03:14 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 4 - Day 29,
People respect me. I sing in the bus. I hum everywhere when I catch myself wanting to feel good. Battling with holding eye-contact as soon as I'm going to say something and holding it - stutter a little with the first words coming out of my mouth but then it's more likely spoken with confidence.
When I'm out with friends, I can do anything. Very forward with women and walking up to some ladies is a no biggie. I think I need to get to a higher level...
In the morning I was standing at a broad traffic light alone on my side. It turns green and I walk towards the other side and I suddenly notice that there is actually no one on my side and five women on the other walking towards me. I try to focus at the moment and not be too affected by the situation. Made me become self-conscious for a moment but as I walked slowly past them I could see and sense the women looking at me with a little smile and checking me out. Am I deceiving myself here??
I find it funny how I felt this strange butterfly-deep-down-in-the-stomach feeling when I noticed the women walking towards my direction, as if I was a Lion crossing the paths of some horses.
- LM
People respect me. I sing in the bus. I hum everywhere when I catch myself wanting to feel good. Battling with holding eye-contact as soon as I'm going to say something and holding it - stutter a little with the first words coming out of my mouth but then it's more likely spoken with confidence.
When I'm out with friends, I can do anything. Very forward with women and walking up to some ladies is a no biggie. I think I need to get to a higher level...
In the morning I was standing at a broad traffic light alone on my side. It turns green and I walk towards the other side and I suddenly notice that there is actually no one on my side and five women on the other walking towards me. I try to focus at the moment and not be too affected by the situation. Made me become self-conscious for a moment but as I walked slowly past them I could see and sense the women looking at me with a little smile and checking me out. Am I deceiving myself here??
I find it funny how I felt this strange butterfly-deep-down-in-the-stomach feeling when I noticed the women walking towards my direction, as if I was a Lion crossing the paths of some horses.
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
