08-29-2011, 01:14 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-29-2011, 01:15 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 2 - Day 17,
This weekend, I had gone back to my old pattern. Very bad habit. It's fascinating how easily it is, to fall back to a old habit. When it was too late, I was thinking that this is wrong and I shouldn't keep doing this but I did. Next day I wake up I feel terrible.
Fortunately enough I do have something planned to do and I am aware enough when I haven't fallen in the trap at the day.
Some self-doubt have come back up but it's like it have really little affect on what's happening outside of myself but more how I think of myself.. strange...
Ohh and this girl, a sexy dancer I've been making out with before 3 months ago but I met her again and she offered her number. I wrote it in an earlier entry here. I write to her but she doesn't respond. Then I meet her in a club and she was like, I want you and introduce me to her female friends. I asked why she didn't answer, which she gave an excuse for, pretty long. And she asks if she was excused and I said no.
She makes a little drama but says sorry afterwards.. she wanted me I could tell. Her and her female friends went to another place and I told her to write to me when they get there. She did.
Long story short.. we didn't do anything that night but I suggested that we should meet the next day, she haven't responded.
Now I didn't want to waste more time with this girl, so after calling today and she didn't take it, I wrote afterwards; "Hi xyz. If you are not responding because you are not interested, then you can just say it! Anyways.. soo, would you like to share my company; [week days and time of the day, evening etc.] ?
"
She haven't responded.
- LM
This weekend, I had gone back to my old pattern. Very bad habit. It's fascinating how easily it is, to fall back to a old habit. When it was too late, I was thinking that this is wrong and I shouldn't keep doing this but I did. Next day I wake up I feel terrible.
Fortunately enough I do have something planned to do and I am aware enough when I haven't fallen in the trap at the day.
Some self-doubt have come back up but it's like it have really little affect on what's happening outside of myself but more how I think of myself.. strange...
Ohh and this girl, a sexy dancer I've been making out with before 3 months ago but I met her again and she offered her number. I wrote it in an earlier entry here. I write to her but she doesn't respond. Then I meet her in a club and she was like, I want you and introduce me to her female friends. I asked why she didn't answer, which she gave an excuse for, pretty long. And she asks if she was excused and I said no.
She makes a little drama but says sorry afterwards.. she wanted me I could tell. Her and her female friends went to another place and I told her to write to me when they get there. She did.
Long story short.. we didn't do anything that night but I suggested that we should meet the next day, she haven't responded.
Now I didn't want to waste more time with this girl, so after calling today and she didn't take it, I wrote afterwards; "Hi xyz. If you are not responding because you are not interested, then you can just say it! Anyways.. soo, would you like to share my company; [week days and time of the day, evening etc.] ?
"She haven't responded.
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
