06-29-2011, 09:06 AM
I'm gonna write a little about myself. To remind myself of how things were and hopefully to help or guide someone.
I was a computer geek and was in one of the top teams in the world in a very popular shooting game that I've played in around 10 years.
Now I'm in my start twenties and a year before now I was out almost every night in bars or clubs with friends or by myself.
In the beginning I didn't knew what was happening around me and I felt very uneasy and tried to stay cool but I knew I looked fake, so I just tried my best to make myself comfortable and go with the flow. Months passed and I became very comfortable in those environments but when it was day I was feeling uneasy and a little uncomfortable when I went out and there were people.
All the time I went to bars and clubs I learned small-talking and socialize to a certain degree but I was totally unaware of how to really connect with people, like the times in my life where I remember people tell me their honest opinions and things about themselves. I didn't knew what it was I did but it happened sometime and I thought.. why are he/she telling me this?! or huh.. that's cool. I like that but I never gave anything back because I didn't knew what was going on. So it stopped and...
I became aloof as hell and tried to have fun most of the times but women were distracting me and I became miserable many nights. Then I learned that it wasn't about women and I became more arrogant than ever. So when I lost female friends and some old friends and I thought that going out every night was meaningless, I tried to take things more easy and do something in the days instead and tried different stuff out to see the reactions I would get. It was a better path for me. It was experience + awareness that made my way clearer.
Now that I've been visiting my kind family for about a month (also a different culture than where I live), I'm much more aware of the fact about being sincere and honest and connect with people.. but it's experience. Was it hard? Is it still hard? Yes it is difficult sometimes and I'm feeling a little uneasy most of the times but guess what?
I take it as a learning experience and take the most out of it and sometimes I come closer to people than I've ever been before...
Shangri-la
- LM
I was a computer geek and was in one of the top teams in the world in a very popular shooting game that I've played in around 10 years.
Now I'm in my start twenties and a year before now I was out almost every night in bars or clubs with friends or by myself.
In the beginning I didn't knew what was happening around me and I felt very uneasy and tried to stay cool but I knew I looked fake, so I just tried my best to make myself comfortable and go with the flow. Months passed and I became very comfortable in those environments but when it was day I was feeling uneasy and a little uncomfortable when I went out and there were people.
All the time I went to bars and clubs I learned small-talking and socialize to a certain degree but I was totally unaware of how to really connect with people, like the times in my life where I remember people tell me their honest opinions and things about themselves. I didn't knew what it was I did but it happened sometime and I thought.. why are he/she telling me this?! or huh.. that's cool. I like that but I never gave anything back because I didn't knew what was going on. So it stopped and...
I became aloof as hell and tried to have fun most of the times but women were distracting me and I became miserable many nights. Then I learned that it wasn't about women and I became more arrogant than ever. So when I lost female friends and some old friends and I thought that going out every night was meaningless, I tried to take things more easy and do something in the days instead and tried different stuff out to see the reactions I would get. It was a better path for me. It was experience + awareness that made my way clearer.
Now that I've been visiting my kind family for about a month (also a different culture than where I live), I'm much more aware of the fact about being sincere and honest and connect with people.. but it's experience. Was it hard? Is it still hard? Yes it is difficult sometimes and I'm feeling a little uneasy most of the times but guess what?
I take it as a learning experience and take the most out of it and sometimes I come closer to people than I've ever been before...
Shangri-la
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
