08-21-2016, 08:40 PM
Day 32:
It's hard to quantify what's been changing inside me, I imagine due to the naturalizer at work. Here's a few things I notice:
- I am much friendlier towards people, not afraid to smile and have small talk. I remember being pretty closed off towards people when I was running ASC..
- Emotional roller coaster. I suspect a big part of this is due to it being the first month and the programming needing time to integrate and clear out some junk. I am feeling some very deep wounds again, so healing must be taking place. I am also much kinder to myself.
- Motivation is pretty low. I haven't felt like doing ANYTHING this month. I have a lot of failure type programming/fears which seem to be emerging. Lacking purpose..
- Dreams at night have been intense. Old fears and pain are routinely processed every night.
- It's hard to pinpoint this exactly, but I feel more comfortable with my body and sexuality. Checking out girls more, and even hooked up the other day with no effort on my part. Things are shifting in this area
It's hard to quantify what's been changing inside me, I imagine due to the naturalizer at work. Here's a few things I notice:
- I am much friendlier towards people, not afraid to smile and have small talk. I remember being pretty closed off towards people when I was running ASC..
- Emotional roller coaster. I suspect a big part of this is due to it being the first month and the programming needing time to integrate and clear out some junk. I am feeling some very deep wounds again, so healing must be taking place. I am also much kinder to myself.
- Motivation is pretty low. I haven't felt like doing ANYTHING this month. I have a lot of failure type programming/fears which seem to be emerging. Lacking purpose..
- Dreams at night have been intense. Old fears and pain are routinely processed every night.
- It's hard to pinpoint this exactly, but I feel more comfortable with my body and sexuality. Checking out girls more, and even hooked up the other day with no effort on my part. Things are shifting in this area
