During the last week, I felt exhausted physically and I needed more sleep than usual. I had few nights with something like 12 hours of sleep. Idk if running AM6 is demanding energetically or something like that could explain how I feel. At some point, I started wondering if I was starting a small depression or something like that. Paradoxically, I feel like the program is really boosting my self-esteem and increased self-esteem seems like incompatible with a depression.
Anyway, that being said, here are my week-end anecdotes regarding to women. Saterday, it was a nice very hot sunny day so I decided to go at the beach. This decision create a feminine storm. ie: That made a woman in my life very upset. My state did remain unaffected and I knew that this was only temporary.
On my way for the beach, I did stop at a convenience store to grab a 6 packs of beer cans. On my way to the cashier, I ended up in the waiting line behind a cute girl. She wasn't the dream girl of my life but I did imagine her naked and that felt like it could have been fun. A very attractive sex appeal was emanating from her to me. As a side-note, giving myself the permission have these thoughts is imho, an expression of this new increased self-esteem that AM6 is giving me. She must have had the same kind of thoughts about me as she kept looking back at me, playing with her hair. You know sometimes, a girl that notice that you look at her and this is something that she doesn't want, she will pull down her shirt so that you don't check her body out too much. I'm not noticing girls doing that for a long time but this is something that I did notice in the past. Well the girl in line just in front of me did the exact opposite. She did pull up her very molding pants in my face to put her ass well in evidence in my face... I didn't talk to her. Not out of fear. I could and I should have opened her to find out where this could lead to. I would say that it was because I was feeling self-sufficient. I was happy by myself and I was going to a fun place. I have to make it an habit to at least say hello to those girls. One thing that I did few months ago (while running DMSI) was to flirt with a girl working in a tasting kiosk in my grocery. At some point, I introduced myself by giving my full name and I said this is for if you want look me up on Facebook. The grocery girl did find me on Facebook and was chatting on and off with me. I wasn't that interested into the grocery girl but that was a very easy thing to do and only good things could come up from it if I do it with eveyry women pulling up their pants in my face so that I can check out their nice asses...
At the beach, I was playing frizbee with my buddies in the water, a cute woman did pass by and I spontaneously asked her if she wanted to play. I don't remember if I did let her reply or not but I said to her: Catch this and I did send her the frisbee. She did catch it and resend it very well so I did tease her a bit by saying that she was a frisbee champion or something... She went away but I believe that she was a lesbian or something. She was with a group of 6-7 women and they were appearing to have a little bit too much fun together if you see what I mean...
Today, I have returned to the gym. The workout of the day (WOD) did 'appeared' easy (it wasn't) and was not demanding at all for the shoulders (very important as I kinda had a small injury to my shoulder). At the end of the class, I did asked a simple question to a cute girl that was nearby and this resulted to a some interesting discussion. First of all, the AM6 improved self-esteem did gave me some sort of deservingness feeling. ie: I deserve to have this type of women in my life, it is ok for me to feel sexual attraction. That increased self-esteem and deservingness feeling made me more flirteous than usual. And the very interesting part is the amount of personal information that she did volunteer giving me. My experience tells me that when a woman does that, it is a very good signal. All I did ask for was: Do you come often on Sundays? and I have learned that she had an apple picking activity in 2 weeks with her university friends. She is at her last year in University and for that reasons, her calendar is filled with activities with her program friends that they have said during their whole program that they would like to do together but since it is the last year, it is this year or never. Yesterday was her father 50th birthday (OMG, I'm just barely younger than his dad...). She usually work on Sundays but not today because she took off today as she will be driving her parents at the airport that are leaving for a 1 month trip in Romania where she comes from and she will have the house for herself alone for a full month and so on... You get the picture...
Anyway, that being said, here are my week-end anecdotes regarding to women. Saterday, it was a nice very hot sunny day so I decided to go at the beach. This decision create a feminine storm. ie: That made a woman in my life very upset. My state did remain unaffected and I knew that this was only temporary.
On my way for the beach, I did stop at a convenience store to grab a 6 packs of beer cans. On my way to the cashier, I ended up in the waiting line behind a cute girl. She wasn't the dream girl of my life but I did imagine her naked and that felt like it could have been fun. A very attractive sex appeal was emanating from her to me. As a side-note, giving myself the permission have these thoughts is imho, an expression of this new increased self-esteem that AM6 is giving me. She must have had the same kind of thoughts about me as she kept looking back at me, playing with her hair. You know sometimes, a girl that notice that you look at her and this is something that she doesn't want, she will pull down her shirt so that you don't check her body out too much. I'm not noticing girls doing that for a long time but this is something that I did notice in the past. Well the girl in line just in front of me did the exact opposite. She did pull up her very molding pants in my face to put her ass well in evidence in my face... I didn't talk to her. Not out of fear. I could and I should have opened her to find out where this could lead to. I would say that it was because I was feeling self-sufficient. I was happy by myself and I was going to a fun place. I have to make it an habit to at least say hello to those girls. One thing that I did few months ago (while running DMSI) was to flirt with a girl working in a tasting kiosk in my grocery. At some point, I introduced myself by giving my full name and I said this is for if you want look me up on Facebook. The grocery girl did find me on Facebook and was chatting on and off with me. I wasn't that interested into the grocery girl but that was a very easy thing to do and only good things could come up from it if I do it with eveyry women pulling up their pants in my face so that I can check out their nice asses...
At the beach, I was playing frizbee with my buddies in the water, a cute woman did pass by and I spontaneously asked her if she wanted to play. I don't remember if I did let her reply or not but I said to her: Catch this and I did send her the frisbee. She did catch it and resend it very well so I did tease her a bit by saying that she was a frisbee champion or something... She went away but I believe that she was a lesbian or something. She was with a group of 6-7 women and they were appearing to have a little bit too much fun together if you see what I mean...
Today, I have returned to the gym. The workout of the day (WOD) did 'appeared' easy (it wasn't) and was not demanding at all for the shoulders (very important as I kinda had a small injury to my shoulder). At the end of the class, I did asked a simple question to a cute girl that was nearby and this resulted to a some interesting discussion. First of all, the AM6 improved self-esteem did gave me some sort of deservingness feeling. ie: I deserve to have this type of women in my life, it is ok for me to feel sexual attraction. That increased self-esteem and deservingness feeling made me more flirteous than usual. And the very interesting part is the amount of personal information that she did volunteer giving me. My experience tells me that when a woman does that, it is a very good signal. All I did ask for was: Do you come often on Sundays? and I have learned that she had an apple picking activity in 2 weeks with her university friends. She is at her last year in University and for that reasons, her calendar is filled with activities with her program friends that they have said during their whole program that they would like to do together but since it is the last year, it is this year or never. Yesterday was her father 50th birthday (OMG, I'm just barely younger than his dad...). She usually work on Sundays but not today because she took off today as she will be driving her parents at the airport that are leaving for a 1 month trip in Romania where she comes from and she will have the house for herself alone for a full month and so on... You get the picture...
