LTU: Moving forward

[mat422]

After tonight I'm thinking about moving back to 5 loops. 6 loops feels like it's interfering with my ability to work. I'm zoned out, have trouble concentrating, sometimes can't solve problems all that well. Which ends up frustrating me more. On top of that I have absolutely zero desire to do anything job related unless it's directly helping someone having issues. I'm at the the point now where I'm only working because I don't want to get fired. It's not a good place to be, it's gotten really hard to make it through the day.

We just got a new it director and I know he's going to try to organize things and try to maximize "results" from the IT department. Which is not making me feel good because like I said I'm barely getting by here. And also since I'm basically help desk, I solve problems as they come up. I'm not some developer or report creation expert and I'm hoping he doesn't see that as being "more productive" ie throwing more work onto me to make himself look better to higher ups who don't know anything about tech or computers.

I'm actively seeking other jobs. But for now I can't deal with this low cognitive ability and fatigue every day. It's bad enough on its own, but then having to force myself to do something I don't want to do for 8 hours feels like torture to me