07-21-2019, 04:13 PM
So I think my music moved up a notch? I've been visualizing every night before I go to sleep and affirming I can do this. I'm finding myself more open to taking on daunting prospects. For example, right now I'm watching a series on mixing music on youtube. It's a lot of info, but I know it'll make my music that much better and give me more fulfillment. Basically I'm aiming to make my music more 3d. As an electronic musician I have a lot of freedom with how I want my music to come across that isn't reliant purely on notes.
Concepts are coming together more lately. Moments of clarity where I was stuck on a certain section and then realized what was missing. My ability to analyze songs I like and learn from them has gotten better. I suspect before the fear/anxiety was so strong when I listened to a really good piece of music it ruined my focus and ability to pick things apart.
I'm realizing more and more that I always wanted my music to be a certain way or I had a vision for it. But I'd find myself resisting putting in the necessary work to take it there. Along with that being too focused on my comfort zone. The amount of times I've wanted to make more upbeat energy filled dance floor type tracks and then found myself struggling, so I stopped. I would convince myself that it wasn't really what I wanted to make and I'd go back to stuff I was more familiar with. I don't believe that artists should follow the path of least resistance when creating art, it should definitely grow just like the individual. That means trying new things, exploring new concepts, breaking out of familiar habits. I hope as I continue to grow with LTU it becomes easier to venture into these unknown territories with enthusiasm and enjoyment vs fear.
Tonight I begin 6 loops. We'll see how it goes. But overall I've been very focused on manifesting the reality I want. Also taking care to make sure I don't focus on the hard aspects of it. Basically when people say things like living off music is tough, you have to sell out, you have to have a part time job too because it won't pay the bills, turning music into a job will kill the joy of it, you have to be really good for anyone to notice you, etc. There's a laundry list of negative thoughts and beliefs towards music as primary source of income. My main point is I'm not trying to manifest a life where I'm in that struggle, clawing my way through it all. Rather a life of ease and enjoyment, where my music fills me with energy and I'm supported fully in all ways that make me secure. I'm rejecting those ideas that have been drilled into my head since I was young about the "real world". The only "real world" is the one you make for yourself, not someone's narrow definition of what life is like.
I've been through some rough patches with LTU5 I'm not gonna lie. At times it's made me want to quit, doubt it's doing anything, been skeptical of the whole concept of all this belief restructuring. When you're in those moments of doubt, it's hard not to see it as the truth. It's only when you come out the other side you can see it was an attempt to hold you back. But man are those delusions and doubts strong. For me I felt like I was wasting my life away getting nowhere, I see now a lot was going on underneath I wasn't always consciously aware of.
Concepts are coming together more lately. Moments of clarity where I was stuck on a certain section and then realized what was missing. My ability to analyze songs I like and learn from them has gotten better. I suspect before the fear/anxiety was so strong when I listened to a really good piece of music it ruined my focus and ability to pick things apart.
I'm realizing more and more that I always wanted my music to be a certain way or I had a vision for it. But I'd find myself resisting putting in the necessary work to take it there. Along with that being too focused on my comfort zone. The amount of times I've wanted to make more upbeat energy filled dance floor type tracks and then found myself struggling, so I stopped. I would convince myself that it wasn't really what I wanted to make and I'd go back to stuff I was more familiar with. I don't believe that artists should follow the path of least resistance when creating art, it should definitely grow just like the individual. That means trying new things, exploring new concepts, breaking out of familiar habits. I hope as I continue to grow with LTU it becomes easier to venture into these unknown territories with enthusiasm and enjoyment vs fear.
Tonight I begin 6 loops. We'll see how it goes. But overall I've been very focused on manifesting the reality I want. Also taking care to make sure I don't focus on the hard aspects of it. Basically when people say things like living off music is tough, you have to sell out, you have to have a part time job too because it won't pay the bills, turning music into a job will kill the joy of it, you have to be really good for anyone to notice you, etc. There's a laundry list of negative thoughts and beliefs towards music as primary source of income. My main point is I'm not trying to manifest a life where I'm in that struggle, clawing my way through it all. Rather a life of ease and enjoyment, where my music fills me with energy and I'm supported fully in all ways that make me secure. I'm rejecting those ideas that have been drilled into my head since I was young about the "real world". The only "real world" is the one you make for yourself, not someone's narrow definition of what life is like.
I've been through some rough patches with LTU5 I'm not gonna lie. At times it's made me want to quit, doubt it's doing anything, been skeptical of the whole concept of all this belief restructuring. When you're in those moments of doubt, it's hard not to see it as the truth. It's only when you come out the other side you can see it was an attempt to hold you back. But man are those delusions and doubts strong. For me I felt like I was wasting my life away getting nowhere, I see now a lot was going on underneath I wasn't always consciously aware of.
INFP
