07-09-2019, 05:19 PM
Was lying in bed today thinking about this whole fear thing. And I really do let fear stop me from doing stuff and then I'm miserable. Take for example the fact I've been wanting to learn how to play piano. I keep putting off the videos for learning because I get overwhelmed at everything I have to learn, memorize, and get better at. I get so worked up I just don't even bother doing it. I think more than anything my anticipation of stuff is what stops me. Once I'm in the moment and doing it it's not as bad. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to carry over or my subconscious doesn't quite get it. So the next time I have to revisit that activity it's like starting from square one and forcing myself to do it. Depending on my energy level and willpower for the day I may or may not be able to do it.
Is this how it is for everyone? It can't be. There's no way people have to battle themselves this much just to do simple stuff. Might be my subconscious rebelling even more due to LTU. So frustrating.
Is this how it is for everyone? It can't be. There's no way people have to battle themselves this much just to do simple stuff. Might be my subconscious rebelling even more due to LTU. So frustrating.
INFP
