06-24-2019, 03:48 AM
Thing I'm noticing. The more the real me gets pulled out and on the surface, the more I dissociate from it. Last night as I was lying in bed listening to LTU I started feeling like I was nobody, I didn't exist, that I was empty or devoid of anything that makes me human. I realized today this is how I distance myself from the parts of myself I fear bringing to the surface. I guess I'd rather not exist vs exposing my true self to the world. Basically I went in the exact opposite of self love, I tried to shrink myself down more and more to nothing. I've had a habit of this is the past too.
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