05-18-2019, 07:01 AM
Tipper dropped a new album the other day. As I was listening to it I was amazed. On a whole different level, stuff I can't even figure out how he put together. I went back to my own track I was working on and felt like crap. A lot of doubts flooded my mind at that moment. All the artists I admire, their creativity and skill. I always felt there was something special about my own music, but the more I work on stuff the more I feel like there's nothing really there. It always feels like I'm in a constant battle of what I want my music to be vs what it actually is.
The only solution is to keep working and bridge that gap. But that's just one part of my life. I'm realizing after running LTU that my whole life is pretty much a mess in terms of what I want.
I'm really late to the game with everything. And that's no exaggeration. My social skills, job experience, music experience, general confidence, just life in general when I think about it. My only hope is that me basically going through years of exactly what doesn't work will give me the edge nowadays. Whereas some people fall into everything and don't understand consciously, I've had to learn a lot of hard lessons. I just hope those mean something and I can achieve things at an accelerated rate once I really get going.
The only solution is to keep working and bridge that gap. But that's just one part of my life. I'm realizing after running LTU that my whole life is pretty much a mess in terms of what I want.
I'm really late to the game with everything. And that's no exaggeration. My social skills, job experience, music experience, general confidence, just life in general when I think about it. My only hope is that me basically going through years of exactly what doesn't work will give me the edge nowadays. Whereas some people fall into everything and don't understand consciously, I've had to learn a lot of hard lessons. I just hope those mean something and I can achieve things at an accelerated rate once I really get going.
INFP
