04-23-2019, 02:45 AM
Had a migraine yesterday and nonstop anxiety all day. I was trying to get it under control at work but stuff kept going wrong and it was like a cattle prod to my nervous system. I'm so burned out at this job, constantly getting harassed for stuff that's outside of my control. And the business is too cheap to see the value in investing in the infrastructure to make things run more smoothly. Felt like I was going to break down at work today. And then when I got home the migraine centered in on a point right behind my eye that was intense stabbing pain. Had to just go to bed early and I still feel the effects of it today.
I feel like I should be able to control my reactions to all this stuff, but I still struggle. I think it's because nobody really understands computers where I work, so when something goes wrong it's immediately assumed I know how to fix it or I should know how just because it happens inside the computer.
But anyway, I just wish I could roll with this stuff more and I could go to my job and not feel like it drains my energy. I've been getting better, I've stopped worrying about proving my worth at this company. But I feel as if it's a bad fit for me in general.
I feel like I should be able to control my reactions to all this stuff, but I still struggle. I think it's because nobody really understands computers where I work, so when something goes wrong it's immediately assumed I know how to fix it or I should know how just because it happens inside the computer.
But anyway, I just wish I could roll with this stuff more and I could go to my job and not feel like it drains my energy. I've been getting better, I've stopped worrying about proving my worth at this company. But I feel as if it's a bad fit for me in general.
INFP
