04-16-2019, 02:50 AM
After correcting that little detour it made me think of the whole fear of happiness thing. I'm starting to see how that's manifesting in my life. Why don't I go after the stuff I really want? Instead I've pigeonholed myself into "realistic" and "safe" pursuits. I'm going to make more of a conscious decision to steer my life in the direction I want vs being carried randomly wherever I land. That attitude of not making a solid decision and sticking to it is like avoiding failure. Can't fail at something if you didn't have a goal in the first place!
So yeah. I'm going to start visualizing more. Watching my negative thought loops that happen throughout the day. Most of all I'm going to stop accepting less than in my life. No more of this attitude of not being good enough to have something.
Basically my current situation is a reflection of how I feel about myself. Low pay and taken advantage of because I've always had this feeling I was a burden and others were doing me a favor. But I'm going to change that. Im going to create a life I can find happiness in and it's going to be on my terms, not some limited view based on others opinions.
So yeah. I'm going to start visualizing more. Watching my negative thought loops that happen throughout the day. Most of all I'm going to stop accepting less than in my life. No more of this attitude of not being good enough to have something.
Basically my current situation is a reflection of how I feel about myself. Low pay and taken advantage of because I've always had this feeling I was a burden and others were doing me a favor. But I'm going to change that. Im going to create a life I can find happiness in and it's going to be on my terms, not some limited view based on others opinions.
INFP
