04-11-2019, 03:11 PM
You know what? Insight is only useless if you don't do anything with it. I've established I have fear. Deep fears, ridiculous fears. Fears that controlled my life for as long as I can remember. Having that level of fear got me down the path of thinking it was some untouchable thing. That it is more powerful than it actually is.
I've been stuck. Not happy with my circumstances, but at the same time too afraid to change them. But if I continue down this path that's one of my worst nightmares. So that's enough motivation for me to keep trying.
These past few weeks I've been having this desire to "let go". This internal pressure to change, I kept trying to ignore it or I'd sort of break down and want to give up. Do anything to escape it. It felt like this desire to go all the way back to the way things used to be. I realized giving into that is what's holding me back. I need to move forward instead and stop telling myself things can't be a certain way in my life.
I have to try. I've had years of conditioning that's caused me to not even try because I think I know what the outcome will be. I assume it won't work or I'm not ready yet or any other limiting belief. It's hard sometimes trying to do your best and feeling like you ran into a brickwall at some point. Doing that multiple times really takes it out of you. But I'm going to keep going until I get to where I want to be.
I've been stuck. Not happy with my circumstances, but at the same time too afraid to change them. But if I continue down this path that's one of my worst nightmares. So that's enough motivation for me to keep trying.
These past few weeks I've been having this desire to "let go". This internal pressure to change, I kept trying to ignore it or I'd sort of break down and want to give up. Do anything to escape it. It felt like this desire to go all the way back to the way things used to be. I realized giving into that is what's holding me back. I need to move forward instead and stop telling myself things can't be a certain way in my life.
I have to try. I've had years of conditioning that's caused me to not even try because I think I know what the outcome will be. I assume it won't work or I'm not ready yet or any other limiting belief. It's hard sometimes trying to do your best and feeling like you ran into a brickwall at some point. Doing that multiple times really takes it out of you. But I'm going to keep going until I get to where I want to be.
INFP
