03-27-2019, 02:52 AM
Things have been really rough. I haven't been sleeping well. I keep waking up at random intervals in the night. Also consistently waking up before my alarm. But not really waking up, more like leaving sleep then going back into it for 15 minutes and then dragged out. I feel this soul crushing weight in my chest every morning when I first wake up. I hope it goes away soon because this is getting really hard to deal with in the morning.
Overall I don't know if I can take one more dissapointment of having hopes of things changing or being different and I stay in the same place. I've stood by Shannon's subliminals for a while now and they are effective. But if LTU doesn't get me to where I need to be I have to look at other options outside of this stuff. I know it's on me to change, but I've screwed that up a lot in the past and continue to make the same mistakes. I'm taking responsibility for it, but at the same time if something that's supposed to help causes this much psychological distress I have to look into other options. I can't be tied to one solution and hoping that maybe one day it'll work for me.
Overall I don't know if I can take one more dissapointment of having hopes of things changing or being different and I stay in the same place. I've stood by Shannon's subliminals for a while now and they are effective. But if LTU doesn't get me to where I need to be I have to look at other options outside of this stuff. I know it's on me to change, but I've screwed that up a lot in the past and continue to make the same mistakes. I'm taking responsibility for it, but at the same time if something that's supposed to help causes this much psychological distress I have to look into other options. I can't be tied to one solution and hoping that maybe one day it'll work for me.
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