03-21-2019, 06:06 PM
I keep having these feelings of fear/sadness that pop up. And I feel like I can only process them alone. When I'm around people I feel like I need to hide these feelings. It's been hard at work because I've been feeling incredibly vulnerable lately and my knee jerk reaction to suppress it fills me with tension. I know, the answer is don't suppress it. But easier said than done.
Which leads me to my next discovery. I'm entirely uncomfortable being open with my emotions around anyone. The thing is, it's not even outward emotion. I mean just feeling it. I'm trying to be more open, but basically it backfires and I get afraid and close off more. Part of me definitely doesn't feel safe around people.
The whole thing has been exhausting because it feels like I'm getting pulled in a certain direction, but too afraid at the same time.
Which leads me to my next discovery. I'm entirely uncomfortable being open with my emotions around anyone. The thing is, it's not even outward emotion. I mean just feeling it. I'm trying to be more open, but basically it backfires and I get afraid and close off more. Part of me definitely doesn't feel safe around people.
The whole thing has been exhausting because it feels like I'm getting pulled in a certain direction, but too afraid at the same time.
INFP
