LTU 5 yeah, I did it too.

[Paul1131]

Something has changed with this last set. This is taking a LOT more energy to run. I just finished night three, and I’ve had difficulty keeping my eyes open each night of this cycle. I am not entirely sure that this is related to the sub, and not some seasonal biorhythm of mine, but it’s worst during the last loop. Also, I kind of feel uncomfortable, and want to turn it off during my last loop. It’s hard to describe, but it’s an annoying feeling. Some of my old negative thinking is trying to resurface, but it’s very fleeting. I think maybe some part of the program is pushing into territory that hasn’t been touched before, and my subconscious doesn’t like it. My negative self image may also sense that its on the brink of extinction and be trying to make a last stand. In either case, I’m expecting a breakthrough in the near future. I am not going to modify anything. If I push through it, it’ll pass.
On the USLM front, I’ve wanted a certain type of firearm (Not trying to start a gun debate here guys, but it’d be hard to describe this without mentioning what the thing was.).for quite a while. My father is a part owner of a custom gun shop back in my home state, and has offered to build me one at a reduced price. I hadn’t been able to scrape enough together lately even for that. Dad is going to build me a really nice one and ship it out here for free. I’m going to go ahead and count that as a manifestation of something I had concentrated on wanting.