03-03-2019, 09:23 AM
Thank you RTBoss for sharing your thoughts on what is being alpha. It clarified a lot, and I agree much with your thoughts on what is being alpha.
In fact, what you wrote isn't different from my thought on what is being alpha.
One thing I find being alpha being difficult in my situation is that there are many things that I have to put up with during the conscription that are really messed up. For instance, I had to turn blind eye toward a few things that were shady, or against my core principles. Or follow orders that were totally against my own beliefs/principles. In many cases, I managed to resist or dodge away this, but there were times that I simply couldn't do that.
I don't know how things would turn out if I am on AM instead of LTU (or LTU as well since I sorta feel that it is somewhat making me more alpha/assertive) while carrying out the conscription. And because of the reason above (conflicting my principle/beliefs and the things I need to do/ordered to do during the conscription) that I decided to save AM and run LTU instead. (And there were a few other reasons for LTU, and USLM is one of the biggest reasons.)
I suppose an alpha guy can take the conflicting principle/belief and survive, as it can be seen as paying his dues. However, I wonder, can an alpha guy take that kind of status/treatment for extended period of time like a year or two?
In fact, what you wrote isn't different from my thought on what is being alpha.
One thing I find being alpha being difficult in my situation is that there are many things that I have to put up with during the conscription that are really messed up. For instance, I had to turn blind eye toward a few things that were shady, or against my core principles. Or follow orders that were totally against my own beliefs/principles. In many cases, I managed to resist or dodge away this, but there were times that I simply couldn't do that.
I don't know how things would turn out if I am on AM instead of LTU (or LTU as well since I sorta feel that it is somewhat making me more alpha/assertive) while carrying out the conscription. And because of the reason above (conflicting my principle/beliefs and the things I need to do/ordered to do during the conscription) that I decided to save AM and run LTU instead. (And there were a few other reasons for LTU, and USLM is one of the biggest reasons.)
I suppose an alpha guy can take the conflicting principle/belief and survive, as it can be seen as paying his dues. However, I wonder, can an alpha guy take that kind of status/treatment for extended period of time like a year or two?
