LTU 5: The Journey

[CatMan]

"It's not that I'm so smart, it's that I stick with problems longer." - Albert Einstein.

Believe it: motivation, perseverance, persistence, determination and specificity of goal will beat raw intelligence all day long, every day for anyone's lifetime.

I can vouch for this.

I'm amazed how far I've come in my business life, with merely concentrating on never giving up, seeking good mentors, learning and adapting and putting myself through a process of constant (even if small) improvement towards my goal(s).

Can take a person VERY far...believe it.

[ichigo]

Thanks gentlemen for the motivational words.

I'm applying for jobs with higher salaries than I'm currently on but not even getting responses. I think my CV needs to be revamped, will have to wait until Saturday evening to be able to work on it though as I've agreed to see friends in the day and it's too late to cancel on them. Girlfriend will probably want my time too Saturday eve. Problem is it's not even an industry I want to be in any more.

After researching different industries I could go into which require actual tangible skill sets (rather than wishy washy Marketing / Account management "skills") Information Security has caught my eye. I hear the future career prospects are good as there's a skills shortage. I've downloaded some books to read on the subject and have my eye on a CompTIA Security+ certification which I believe is a kind of entry level certificate for beginners wanting to break into the industry. If anybody reading this has any recommendations of good books to read for a beginner please feel free!

LTU feels pretty similar to BASE so far. It has me thinking I'd hold out for BASE 6G instead of AM7 if I were to only choose one. Focusing on my career feels good, although it's making me wish I'd taken all these steps a long time ago instead of just floating along content with being a sexy guy that gets IOIs.

[ichigo]

Feel like I've jumped over some sort of hurdle lately and my productivity has been through the roof... and it feels good. Things that I didn't previously think possible are starting to come realistic potentials. I'm kind of at a cross roads right now where I'm considering:

a.) Sticking with current job if they approve my role progression plan and up my salary enough
b.) Getting another job in the same industry
c.) Trying to start my own agency

If I go with options a or b, I would intend to continue studying IT and then IT security to eventually transition over. If I went with option c, I'd like to present myself as marketing specifically for IT and Tech companies as my niche, but haven't done the research yet to see how strong the competition is. Eventually I could perhaps start my own IT security firm.

Option c fills me with excitement, but it's the most risky, the most work and the most likely to fail. But if there's a time for me to fail with the least risk possible, it's now. Worst case scenario I would have lost time/money but I'm in a position where I can afford for that to happen and for it to not be the end of the world.

Another self reflection I've had is that I have a habit of fixating on people I admire and then soaking up their character traits. Right now it's Elon Musk - I'll watch interviews with him on YouTube in the background while I work and it helps me to stay motivated and productive. If I start to feel lazy, I think to myself, "What would Elon do?" and that helps to get me back on track.

I've been that way my whole life - pretending or fantasizing I'm someone else to mimic the confidence that they have. It doesn't work if I think to myself "What would ichigo do?". It seems this is a function of having low self-esteem? Hopefully if I can achieve enough in the future I will be able to see myself as a positive role model and be self-motivated because of "What would ichigo do?" and not "What would Elon do?"

[ichigo]

Still working on finding out what my passion is. Trying to work it out by calculating:

-What are my skills?
-What am I passionate about?
-What can I do to improve the future of mankind?

Number 1 I'm making progress but go back and forth between thinking I'm talented and thinking I'm worthless. Number 2 is tricky... I don't think I've ever been passionate about anything. If I have a free day to spend to myself, I'd probably eat, watch youtube or read. Number 3 encounters problems due to number 1 + 2 - if I'm not skilled, and don't have the motivation/fuel to gain skills, then my impact on number 3 is minuscule.

Diet and exercise routine are starting to fall to shit too. Thinking about doing AM6 or BASE but recognise what it is... resistance.

Keep going. Keep going.

[ichigo]

Still struggling with finding a life purpose. Also realizing how lazy I am.

I came to the conclusion it would be a good idea to research and write a small book on finding your life purpose. This would help me work through and find my own, and then if my findings were to be of value to someone else that's great.

Problem is, it's been so long since I actually created anything myself. When I sit down to do it, I just feel an overwhelming sense of tiredness, frustration and a wrench in my gut I can only describe as resistance. It's like there's a part of me that's really against creating something. I'm much happier learning new things (taking value from someone else) but when it comes to providing value back I'm rubbish. Even writing this... it's just all over the place.

Feeling a strong urge to switch back to BASE 5G or even drop subliminals altogether. I'm beginning to feel like LTU5 has given me the mindset to find a life purpose and give something to the world, but at the same time it's hindering me as I can't seem to think straight on it. But then... is that the sub's doing, or would I be feeling this way even if I weren't on a sub in the first place? I need a sub that's going to strengthen my mind and motivation so that I can create and provide value.

I just feel really really... down. It's like my whole being is screaming at me to figure out what I need to be doing and do it before it's too late, and until I find it I'm just wasting my time... but I still don't know what that thing is.

[Shannon]

I'd say this sub is getting some important things accessed. Resistance means change is coming. It also sounds like you're trying to create excuses to run something else.

Don't.