04-14-2019, 03:00 PM
It sounds to me more like this: You've been told in the past that your mind is slow, dull and useless, and then you internalized it, and now you're dealing with the consequences of your internalization. You're probably smarter than you think you are but your internalization of this POV becomes swlf fulfilling prophecy and your mi d gets slower because that's what it expects. I suggest you stay on LTU5 and get professional help, one that utilizes cognitive behavioural therapy. Also, even if you are slow, that doesn't make you useless. There's still plenty of value you can bring to the world. So it's all rooted in self image issues rooted in the past. I say stay on LTU5 ans work through those self acceptence issues. That's the best advice I have right now. Maybe some flash of insight will come forth in the future that will helpbyou out but I feel this is probably pretty accurate. So just stick with LTU5 and get some therapy. Work through those issues you have with self acceptence and your past and as you love yourself more, you might just start noticing your mind becoming quicker 
