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[chaosvrgn]

Day 6

Upon reviewing my post from last night It seems clear to me that I am hitting resistance. I'm also still tired as hell from starting MLS so maybe I need a day break to ease myself into it. Moving forward I'll keep reminding myself who I am and try to have MLS GIVE me scholarly traits instead of TURNING ME INTO a scholar. I started using my ecig again, I ate a ton of sugar, and I looped Absolute Self Confidence last night. 3 pretty clear signs of conscious resistance. I'm entirely too picky about my persona to actually BECOME a scholar. I want to be limitless, not lame and annoying.

edit:
To further the resistance, lol, I'm currently listening to AM6 stage 1. After just 5 minutes i'm starting to feel much more like myself which makes me realize even more how awkward and cringy I was being. Ugh. I really don't want to waste 90 bucks.

But Ars, subs are all about changing and improving yourself!! Yes, I recognize that, to which I have this to say. I have certain core traits about my personality that I am very much interested in keeping. Some of those traits can be improved and I will choose certain subs like Am6, Stop PE, DMSI, etc to supplement those traits. I am not interested in REPLACING those traits and so far it very much feels like MLS is replacing them. BUT ARS KEEP LISTENING YOURE GOING THROUGH CLEARING! Yeah ok, I got it, meh. I'm a picky, fickle little bitch, this I am aware of.

You're about to royally f*ck yourself up by switching subs like that. Seriously, don't do it. Be sarcastic all you want, but take it from someone that ran DMSI while running AM6 -- no matter how bad you think you have it on MLS, it's worse when you're switching subs.