Joining that EPRHA 2.0 Bandwagon

[Why So Serious?]

Yep and now my laptop needs it's screen replaced along with a new battery. I really need to upgrade grade so I might just do that. Just wasn't planing on doing it so soon. I'm really hoping I don't have anything else happen.

Hmm today I just realized that reason for me wanting to get bigger boobs and getting back into the shape I was in high school. I feel like if i have that body I wouldn't have to put in to much self improvement work. Like that would just solve some(ahem most) of my problems. And even when I had that body in school and college it didn't make me feel better about myself anyway. How strange Why do I keep thinking crap like this is going make things so much better?

I guess I'll really be putting a lot of things on pause or going about it very slowly till I can find out if I'm doing things for the right reason.

[maxx55]

I feel like as more time passes, there are less and less people who have been on E2 for the long term. Glad there's still a handfull of us!

Anyway, I was wondering how you feel about figuring out the hours on E2. I've been on it for about 6 months now. At first, I could keep hours 16+ but I'd regularly get a headache at the same day of the week that lasted hours (only recently figured out the sub caused it back then). The higher the hours, generally the better it numbed the emotional pain (with some exceptions of serious bouts of resistance).

Now it seems like I can only get in about 12 hours before I get a headache.

Lower hours (2-4) seem to bring about a "normalizing" period where I start to adjust to being myself again, but then soon emotional problems crop up.

Have you gone an extended period with lower hours?

[DisneylandUSA]

Yep and now my laptop needs it's screen replaced along with a new battery. I really need to upgrade grade so I might just do that. Just wasn't planing on doing it so soon. I'm really hoping I don't have anything else happen.

Hmm today I just realized that reason for me wanting to get bigger boobs and getting back into the shape I was in high school. I feel like if i have that body I wouldn't have to put in to much self improvement work. Like that would just solve some(ahem most) of my problems. And even when I had that body in school and college it didn't make me feel better about myself anyway. How strange Why do I keep thinking crap like this is going make things so much better?

I guess I'll really be putting a lot of things on pause or going about it very slowly till I can find out if I'm doing things for the right reason.

Well, Getting back in shape with a nice figure is universal for both men and women; And, yes... Looking like we did in High School would probably make our self-esteem go up and even, make our current friends/co-workers a bit jealous

[maxx55]

Yep and now my laptop needs it's screen replaced along with a new battery. I really need to upgrade grade so I might just do that. Just wasn't planing on doing it so soon. I'm really hoping I don't have anything else happen.

Hmm today I just realized that reason for me wanting to get bigger boobs and getting back into the shape I was in high school. I feel like if i have that body I wouldn't have to put in to much self improvement work. Like that would just solve some(ahem most) of my problems. And even when I had that body in school and college it didn't make me feel better about myself anyway. How strange Why do I keep thinking crap like this is going make things so much better?

I guess I'll really be putting a lot of things on pause or going about it very slowly till I can find out if I'm doing things for the right reason.

Well, Getting back in shape with a nice figure is universal for both men and women; And, yes... Looking like we did in High School would probably make our self-esteem go up and even, make our current friends/co-workers a bit jealous

I actually had the exact same thoughts and urges to get in peak shape. But it's also important for my career.

[Why So Serious?]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

[mat422]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

[Why So Serious?]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

Let's see if that break through happens at the end of the month. I don't feel like it's doing much but maybe it is who knows.
I'm just starting to frustrated that this can't go any faster. It would be nice to have some motivation and all that jazz right about now.
I'm just tired of being depressed, stressed,extremely negative,lots of tension from stress all through out my body, and anxious for 2 1/2 months straight with only a glimmer of peace that lasts a few hours at best. And for some odd reason it only gets worse
I'll try to be more patient but this is starting to get old.

[maxx55]

I'm having the exact same pattern so far that you described and I'm a little over 6 months in. But maybe you'll have more luck soon

[Why So Serious?]

I'm not sure I will have better luck at this point. I wonder what causing us to have the constant negative feelings instead of peace and happiness?

[mat422]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

Let's see if that break through happens at the end of the month. I don't feel like it's doing much but maybe it is who knows.
I'm just starting to frustrated that this can't go any faster. It would be nice to have some motivation and all that jazz right about now.
I'm just tired of being depressed, stressed,extremely negative,lots of tension from stress all through out my body, and anxious for 2 1/2 months straight with only a glimmer of peace that lasts a few hours at best. And for some odd reason it only gets worse
I'll try to be more patient but this is starting to get old.

I know exactly what you're going through. I'm in the same boat. Just take a deep breath and tell yourself it's ok. Do what you can and don't beat yourself up if you can't do any more than you set out to do. That's hard if you have a constant habit of criticizing yourself, which is something I struggle with a lot. But if you can let go of that self criticism you'll notice you start feeling a lot better. At first your mind will resist and tell you that you don't deserve it, don't listen to it and just keep practicing compassion for yourself. Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.

[DisneylandUSA]

I'm not sure I will have better luck at this point. I wonder what causing us to have the constant negative feelings instead of peace and happiness?

Performance anxiety. I know that 'performance anxiety' affects not only athletes, it affects students as well. Perhaps, less worrying if possible will help. College life is stressful no matter who a person is E2 may overload your brain while studying yet, it is a good program overall

[Why So Serious?]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

Let's see if that break through happens at the end of the month. I don't feel like it's doing much but maybe it is who knows.
I'm just starting to frustrated that this can't go any faster. It would be nice to have some motivation and all that jazz right about now.
I'm just tired of being depressed, stressed,extremely negative,lots of tension from stress all through out my body, and anxious for 2 1/2 months straight with only a glimmer of peace that lasts a few hours at best. And for some odd reason it only gets worse
I'll try to be more patient but this is starting to get old.

I know exactly what you're going through. I'm in the same boat. Just take a deep breath and tell yourself it's ok. Do what you can and don't beat yourself up if you can't do any more than you set out to do. That's hard if you have a constant habit of criticizing yourself, which is something I struggle with a lot. But if you can let go of that self criticism you'll notice you start feeling a lot better. At first your mind will resist and tell you that you don't deserve it, don't listen to it and just keep practicing compassion for yourself. Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.

I don't feel like I'm being that critical but my ya'll see something that I don't. Wouldn't be the first time this has happened. I will do my best to take it easy on myself. This sentence don't make sense to me for some odd reason. It's like reading it in some strange alien language. This is going to pretty hard.

Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.
This also isn't making that much sense. I get but I don't get it. Ugh the frustration of not getting this right away.

[Why So Serious?]

I'm not sure I will have better luck at this point. I wonder what causing us to have the constant negative feelings instead of peace and happiness?

Performance anxiety. I know that 'performance anxiety' affects not only athletes, it affects students as well. Perhaps, less worrying if possible will help. College life is stressful no matter who a person is E2 may overload your brain while studying yet, it is a good program overall

I never thought about performance anxiety. Then again I just thought that couldn't be a part of my problem.
I'm wondering if that's why I have a difficult time working on the projects in class vs home. Well half of the problem is their crappy computers. I also freeze up and forget everything learn when it comes to helping others. That doesn't usually happen to me.
Once again I will do my best to relax.

[DisneylandUSA]

Exercising is good to do period. But I don't want to rely on it to the point where I feel like I don't need to improve my personality. Just using my body hoping that will be enough. lol

Can't say a whole lot has happened lately still feeling pretty down. Anxiety is getting worse. I don't feel comfortable walking in public place anymore. Unlike in month 1 and 2 of listening.


I feel glad that I found a degree I don't mind studying for in college.

I noticed that a couple of other users have complained about lower cognitive functioning since starting E2. Nice to know I'm not the only one. Started around month 2 just didn't say anything. Still debating if I want to run this through the whole semester because of this issue. I really like what I'm studying and want to pass, not waste time. I'll see how it goes at the end of the month. Soemthing positive should have happened by then.........I think?

Also the motivation to get things done in college is starting to go down. Almost didn't go to class but I'm glad I did. However I didn't go to get help in algebra.

I just want some motivation and focus.

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

Let's see if that break through happens at the end of the month. I don't feel like it's doing much but maybe it is who knows.
I'm just starting to frustrated that this can't go any faster. It would be nice to have some motivation and all that jazz right about now.
I'm just tired of being depressed, stressed,extremely negative,lots of tension from stress all through out my body, and anxious for 2 1/2 months straight with only a glimmer of peace that lasts a few hours at best. And for some odd reason it only gets worse
I'll try to be more patient but this is starting to get old.

I know exactly what you're going through. I'm in the same boat. Just take a deep breath and tell yourself it's ok. Do what you can and don't beat yourself up if you can't do any more than you set out to do. That's hard if you have a constant habit of criticizing yourself, which is something I struggle with a lot. But if you can let go of that self criticism you'll notice you start feeling a lot better. At first your mind will resist and tell you that you don't deserve it, don't listen to it and just keep practicing compassion for yourself. Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.

I don't feel like I'm being that critical but my ya'll see something that I don't. Wouldn't be the first time this has happened. I will do my best to take it easy on myself. This sentence don't make sense to me for some odd reason. It's like reading it in some strange alien language. This is going to pretty hard.

Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.
This also isn't making that much sense. I get but I don't get it. Ugh the frustration of not getting this right away.

A form of Empowerment. Hopefully, you feel empowered with the supportive statements from others. Perhaps, you recognize that we are here just like most men, to 'fix' a woman's situation... right away