Joining that EPRHA 2.0 Bandwagon

[Why So Serious?]

Today a boss was being negative, the usual, after fuming for several minutes I realized how miserable she was and started smiling and laughing. I'm not sure if a emotionally healthy person would laugh at someones misery but.........it felt good either way.
Then I realized that I don't care if people work on themselves to better themselves or not. Nothing I can do about it. Let them do there own thang.

Can't wait for AOSI v2. Here's to hoping that E2 will make me ready for it.lol

[Why So Serious?]

Well how embarrassing I thought I was on month 2 but I'm on month 3. Ahem anywho I'm going to take a break from this sub at the end of the month. About 4-7 days nothing special. Since I'm the type who doesn't like being told what to do all the time I'm going to see how it goes during that week. Hopefully it yield the same results as AF. If not oh well I feel like I need the break for some odd reason.

And the college gave me Microsoft office for free! YAY!

It's been really stressful with money because I'm kind of getting sucked in to something at the moment. It's now becoming my problem so funds are even tighter than before.

I also got a used(new to me) car last weekend. Everybody is happy for me but I still gotta pay that off quickly. Wouldn't be a big deal if it weren't for that situation and now I'm starting to panic a little.

Welp here's to the future.

EDIT: Oh well shit I think the money problem might be solved temporary.That was fast. Now I might be able to get eyes looked at. Can't see well when I'm driving at night. It's kind of funny cuz I used to blame to the illegal dark tint on the last vehicle when driving at night.lol

[eternity]

Well how embarrassing I thought I was on month 2 but I'm on month 3. Ahem anywho I'm going to take a break from this sub at the end of the month. About 4-7 days nothing special. Since I'm the type who doesn't like being told what to do all the time I'm going to see how it goes during that week. Hopefully it yield the same results as AF. If not oh well I feel like I need the break for some odd reason.

And the college gave me Microsoft office for free! YAY!

It's been really stressful with money because I'm kind of getting sucked in to something at the moment. It's now becoming my problem so funds are even tighter than before.

I also got a used(new to me) car last weekend. Everybody is happy for me but I still gotta pay that off quickly. Wouldn't be a big deal if it weren't for that situation and now I'm starting to panic a little.

Welp here's to the future.

EDIT: Oh well shit I think the money problem might be solved temporary.That was fast. Now I might be able to get eyes looked at. Can't see well when I'm driving at night. It's kind of funny cuz I used to blame to the illegal dark tint on the last vehicle when driving at night.lol

Weirdly enough, I also had stress regarding finances during e2, and I attempted to manifest some solutions for it and the solutions preseneed themselves to me fairly quickly. I wonder if the program recognized where the insecurity was coming from (in our case, financial), and then manifested solutions to that?

BTW congrats on the car.

[ncbeareatingman]

33 days into E2 and its defintely industrial strenght in hitting the deeper stuff. understatment. mannifesting money ,more money would be equally as aweomse in depth in a much more uplifting way at this point. I had a deep dream about money 2 nights ago and in the waking states several 'signs' of money/success...be nice for some to manifest in full physically as it has for you two ! thanx for the posts. GO Cat-women:-)

[Why So Serious?]

@ eternitys_child
I think it did. It felt normal to insecurities about money at the time. It's not as bad now. And thanks it's about time I got that out of the way.

@ncbeareatingman
I had that feeling of abundance(I'm guess what your refering to as waking states?) with AF not so much with E2. I'm starting to think of money as a tool and not put to much emotions into it like I did. I Just need put it to some good use. No money dreams as of yet though.

Hmm had a couple of breakthoughs.

One that I can't rely heavily on the sub to get rid of my fears. Some of them will have to be faced head on. Embarrassing to admit that I was relying so much on the sub to do it for me. Didn't realize it till now.

It really is okay to focus on sex and sexuality and all that jazz. I have fully accepted that. Finally

I also took those MBTI test again and now I'm an intp instead of an infp. Thought it would have stayed the same. Oh well. No need putting to much importance into that anyway.

I don't think I have to listen to the sub for a year to get the full benefits of the sub. Maybe six months is all I need........I think. Lately I have the feeling that I can't get anymore out of the sub. I think I can, but deep down I feel like this is it for now. I have been feeling kind of bored even with the breakthroughs. Maybe I need to take a break from it and get back to it. Longer than what I said in a earlier post. I'm very nervous about stopping but at the same time I'm very excited. If I stop I can see how the sub works while molding into my personality. Soo awesome can't wait for my break tomorrow.

If that doesn't work and start getting depressed I'll just start if up again.

[Nox]

@ eternitys_child
I think it did. It felt normal to insecurities about money at the time. It's not as bad now. And thanks it's about time I got that out of the way.

@ncbeareatingman
I had that feeling of abundance(I'm guess what your refering to as waking states?) with AF not so much with E2. I'm starting to think of money as a tool and not put to much emotions into it like I did. I Just need put it to some good use. No money dreams as of yet though.

Hmm had a couple of breakthoughs.

One that I can't rely heavily on the sub to get rid of my fears. Some of them will have to be faced head on. Embarrassing to admit that I was relying so much on the sub to do it for me. Didn't realize it till now.

It really is okay to focus on sex and sexuality and all that jazz. I have fully accepted that. Finally

I also took those MBTI test again and now I'm an intp instead of an infp. Thought it would have stayed the same. Oh well. No need putting to much importance into that anyway.

I don't think I have to listen to the sub for a year to get the full benefits of the sub. Maybe six months is all I need........I think. Lately I have the feeling that I can't get anymore out of the sub. I think I can, but deep down I feel like this is it for now. I have been feeling kind of bored even with the breakthroughs. Maybe I need to take a break from it and get back to it. Longer than what I said in a earlier post. I'm very nervous about stopping but at the same time I'm very excited. If I stop I can see how the sub works while molding into my personality. Soo awesome can't wait for my break tomorrow.

If that doesn't work and start getting depressed I'll just start if up again.

Sounds like resistance

[Why So Serious?]

I would agree if the same exact thing didn't happen on my AF run.
The first run while I was on my week break was better than when I was listening to it. I should have listened to my intuition and took a longer break because I was starting to get a little bored in the later stages.
The next run was pretty boring I was having having breakthroughs but in my mind it like "Been there and done that what else is new." At that point I was just finishing for the sake of finishing counting down the days to finally stop listening. It was horrible. I kept telling my self at the time I will listen again but I don't think I will because of that experience. If I do it will be years down the road and if it includes bi women.
To make matters worse I read somewhere on the forum that it was okay to listen to six stage subs once a year.

Don't want the same thing happening with E2 so I'll just a break.

[Why So Serious?]

And after typing all that I realized that I was just using that as an excuse to stop listening. So I'll continue listening. I'm just mad at myself for almost talking myself out of listening. Well this weekend isn't turning out how I expected but never fails it's always the weekends I put so much expectation in having a good time. Being unusually tired with low energy doesn't help. Feel pretty calm about not doing anything at certain points of the day. Weird?

Anyway happy early 4th of July everybody.

[DisneylandUSA]

Have a Safe and Enjoyable, Fourth of July.... Perhaps, you need the relaxation... I know a lot of "Driven" individuals who don't like to relax and perhaps, feel 'guilty' for not doing anything on their days off

[Why So Serious?]

I was going to say that isn't me because on the outside I don't seem to do a lot. But you may have a point I don't know how to relax internally. Yes I always feel guilty for not doing anything on the weekends. Yesterday I had a few hours where I didn't feel guilty about it. That hasn't happened in a long time.

And I seem to be trying to follow the crowd with trying to go out celebrating a holiday weekend when I'm not a holiday person. I probably need to accept that the holidays aren't my thing. I think I get it from my dad.

Which is funny because last weekend was fun for me. Didn't really stay home most it.

Thanks and enjoy your weekend too.

[Nox]

And after typing all that I realized that I was just using that as an excuse to stop listening. So I'll continue listening. I'm just mad at myself for almost talking myself out of listening. Well this weekend isn't turning out how I expected but never fails it's always the weekends I put so much expectation in having a good time. Being unusually tired with low energy doesn't help. Feel pretty calm about not doing anything at certain points of the day. Weird?

Anyway happy early 4th of July everybody.

That same thing has happened to me twice now lol

The resistance does seem minor with this subliminal, but it is still there. Don't be mad at yourself, though. You won and passed the challenge.

Other people didnt... They moved on to the newer shiney stuff. You're doing very well ma'am!

[Why So Serious?]

Nice to know I'm not the only one who went through that. I'm not looking forward to going through that again.

It didn't feel minor at the time. I'm glad that I passed that challenge.

I was about to move on to the shiner objects but now I don't even feel the need to move on to that sub so soon. I need to save the money for other stuff anyway. If the price rises when I get ready to buy it oh well. No big deal.
You can't blame them though it's very tempting especially when your a guy and the tables turn. They can have women chasing them for sex. Can't be women either have guy's we find sexually attractive after us with good sex tied in to the mixture.
I wonder if women are listening as well though. Those are the journals I want to read.

Thanks for the compliment.

[eternity]

it's funny how we like to BS ourselves, and then when we write it down, we see our own BS.. it happens to me once in a while and I laugh out and say "good one, self, but I CAUGHT YA!"

lol.

[RTBoss]

Other people didnt... They moved on to the newer shiney stuff. You're doing very well ma'am!

She is doing well. Anyone who moved on to the newer, "shiney" stuff did so for a reason. There's nothing wrong with that, either. E2 will be there when they want to go back to it. Yes, that includes me.