07-03-2011, 02:03 AM
Hi everyone,
I’ve decided to start a new journal again, since I think it could be worthwhile to share my findings regarding subliminals being used to combat Body Dismorphic Disorder (and possibly Bipolar Disorder), the process towards stopping basically being the bane of my own existence and building towards a meaningful life.
For the last half year I’ve been struggling upon building a new strong foundation again, but since my nervous breakdown it’s like building on sand. Nothing tends to stick for long. Since it happened I’m still feeling a bit lost; not having the motivation or having clear defined goals to work towards to (my previous goals don’t apply anymore), and a lot of defeatist behavior and self-doubt when I do. Also there are a lot of things that used to make sense, but don’t anymore. I hope that the Alpha set can at least bring forth a plateau on which I can rely on and start building up from there.
My goal in a nutshell is basically to work towards becoming a self-actualized person, that’s carefree and can choose to be non-reactive to outside stimuli, one that has control over its own emotions and can work through adverse conditions and facing them without being overwhelmed by negative immobilizing thoughts, and even if that would happen would get back on track quickly after again. One that isn’t focused on outcome but has the confidence in himself that whatever happens, he can handle it. I’ve already sort of been there already, so I know it’s a goal that’s attainable. I think the following quote describes it very well;
"Look to nothing, not even for a moment except to reason."
– Marcus Aurelius
Also something I should’ve done a long time ago is making the decision to just to burn my bridges behind me since it is clear that I’m incapable of sticking to only one subliminal at a time. So that's why I’ve kept one single copy of all my subliminals and deleted all other instances of them. The single copy I put on an external HDD and gave it to my sister who will keep it for the duration of ~6 months. The only program that still remains in my possession is Alpha Male 2011. Even if I will feel bouts of resistance or think an issue isn’t addressed properly, I just have to plow through it none the less. It won't be pleasant, but at least it this will prevent me from keeping myself stuck in this place.
I’m going with 35 days per stage, while listening to the program for 12 hours each day. My setup is using Logitech Z3e speakers (20 kHz) at night, and using earbuds Philips SHE4500 (23.5 kHz) during the day. The volume for earbuds will be at 25% - 40% to ensure that I don’t experience anymore hearing loss (I’m already at 15 kHz).
In the meantime I’ve been seeing a psychologist but I’ve got referred to another instance as she wasn’t qualified to effectively work with Body Dismorphic Disorder and I’m also presuming a form of Bipolar Disorder. So I’m guessing that after the first few intakes I’ll ask to also be placed in group therapy to work more towards feedback and assertiveness.
My intention is to post at least once within the period of a fortnight, unless stuff happens.
I’ve decided to start a new journal again, since I think it could be worthwhile to share my findings regarding subliminals being used to combat Body Dismorphic Disorder (and possibly Bipolar Disorder), the process towards stopping basically being the bane of my own existence and building towards a meaningful life.
For the last half year I’ve been struggling upon building a new strong foundation again, but since my nervous breakdown it’s like building on sand. Nothing tends to stick for long. Since it happened I’m still feeling a bit lost; not having the motivation or having clear defined goals to work towards to (my previous goals don’t apply anymore), and a lot of defeatist behavior and self-doubt when I do. Also there are a lot of things that used to make sense, but don’t anymore. I hope that the Alpha set can at least bring forth a plateau on which I can rely on and start building up from there.
My goal in a nutshell is basically to work towards becoming a self-actualized person, that’s carefree and can choose to be non-reactive to outside stimuli, one that has control over its own emotions and can work through adverse conditions and facing them without being overwhelmed by negative immobilizing thoughts, and even if that would happen would get back on track quickly after again. One that isn’t focused on outcome but has the confidence in himself that whatever happens, he can handle it. I’ve already sort of been there already, so I know it’s a goal that’s attainable. I think the following quote describes it very well;
"Look to nothing, not even for a moment except to reason."
– Marcus Aurelius
Also something I should’ve done a long time ago is making the decision to just to burn my bridges behind me since it is clear that I’m incapable of sticking to only one subliminal at a time. So that's why I’ve kept one single copy of all my subliminals and deleted all other instances of them. The single copy I put on an external HDD and gave it to my sister who will keep it for the duration of ~6 months. The only program that still remains in my possession is Alpha Male 2011. Even if I will feel bouts of resistance or think an issue isn’t addressed properly, I just have to plow through it none the less. It won't be pleasant, but at least it this will prevent me from keeping myself stuck in this place.
I’m going with 35 days per stage, while listening to the program for 12 hours each day. My setup is using Logitech Z3e speakers (20 kHz) at night, and using earbuds Philips SHE4500 (23.5 kHz) during the day. The volume for earbuds will be at 25% - 40% to ensure that I don’t experience anymore hearing loss (I’m already at 15 kHz).
In the meantime I’ve been seeing a psychologist but I’ve got referred to another instance as she wasn’t qualified to effectively work with Body Dismorphic Disorder and I’m also presuming a form of Bipolar Disorder. So I’m guessing that after the first few intakes I’ll ask to also be placed in group therapy to work more towards feedback and assertiveness.
My intention is to post at least once within the period of a fortnight, unless stuff happens.