Monday 9th April 2018 - (45-2.6A) - 2nd cycle, 6th Day
Time: 1.49pm
NOT Listening to loop yet.
So what happened huh?
well a few things to note:
1) Tindergirl - chatting got less cos I have seen her pics on facebook without her knowledge and shes worth a fuck but not much else.
2)Snapchat Girl - says I say better things to her than her bf. Shes still seeing me as a friend even though shes naive and has said that shes def willing to go on holiday with me etc.
3) Potsgirl - this is the big one. Last I heard from her was thursday. Friday I was out with my friend and then I think I didnt hear from her until Saturday morning. The chat was left in her court to get back to me regarding a song and a discussion we were having about a song.
Anyway the point is that she of her own self and accord got in touch with me, apologised that it was a delayed/late reply and then asked me what I mean about this song I was referring to.
I was on the phone to another friend, so i asked her if we could talk (as I prefer to talk and make it more real than just message with her) and she said sure.
What took place is a 2hour chat. During the chat, she went out of her apartment to go to a local shop to grab some chocolates as she had a craving, and during that whole time she was on the phone with me, even when paying she was talking to me.
The conversation went well and I made her laugh many many many times during it all and I have tried to build comfort with her which I believe has worked too.
I think I was talking 60% of the time, mayeb a little more or less I cant say but I know that im automatically in the friend zone since she dated my friend, however our chats are more cooler now, I mean I never spoke to her on the phone until now (this being twice as you know if you follow my journal).
I spoke to my male buddy (the one I went to the strip club with) and he said sure I have to lose weight thats a given but now I just have to meet her outside, not at my apartment or hers yet and go someplace for a meal and a chilled out time.
Ive no real idea what to do to be honest. I however know we get on so well or so it seems to me.
Any thoughts and advice would be welcomed.
I really hope that DMSI is helping me somehow, I just dont know how if it is.
I am fixated about my weight though and know I have to sort this out. i woke at 10am today and since have been drinking water and doing things on and off so some procrastination and some not.
I went to the porn site, no reason to really and I sent some introductory hello messages on the swingers dating site. Im sure this comes from fear of some kind but unsure what. Maybe fear its not real and shes not into me which would be hurtful of cos.
Anyway she said she would get back to me later today after listening to the song. The song is pointless its just a hook for her to get back in touch with me.
After the chat she was falling sleepy so we ended the call.
No Fap: 45 days
extra: I did have a scary type of dream. Not nightmarish but more sad events that took place. I recall this probably because I woke during it but yeah it wasnt a nice dream and dont want to share too much about it.
Time: 1.49pm
NOT Listening to loop yet.
So what happened huh?
well a few things to note:
1) Tindergirl - chatting got less cos I have seen her pics on facebook without her knowledge and shes worth a fuck but not much else.
2)Snapchat Girl - says I say better things to her than her bf. Shes still seeing me as a friend even though shes naive and has said that shes def willing to go on holiday with me etc.
3) Potsgirl - this is the big one. Last I heard from her was thursday. Friday I was out with my friend and then I think I didnt hear from her until Saturday morning. The chat was left in her court to get back to me regarding a song and a discussion we were having about a song.
Anyway the point is that she of her own self and accord got in touch with me, apologised that it was a delayed/late reply and then asked me what I mean about this song I was referring to.
I was on the phone to another friend, so i asked her if we could talk (as I prefer to talk and make it more real than just message with her) and she said sure.
What took place is a 2hour chat. During the chat, she went out of her apartment to go to a local shop to grab some chocolates as she had a craving, and during that whole time she was on the phone with me, even when paying she was talking to me.
The conversation went well and I made her laugh many many many times during it all and I have tried to build comfort with her which I believe has worked too.
I think I was talking 60% of the time, mayeb a little more or less I cant say but I know that im automatically in the friend zone since she dated my friend, however our chats are more cooler now, I mean I never spoke to her on the phone until now (this being twice as you know if you follow my journal).
I spoke to my male buddy (the one I went to the strip club with) and he said sure I have to lose weight thats a given but now I just have to meet her outside, not at my apartment or hers yet and go someplace for a meal and a chilled out time.
Ive no real idea what to do to be honest. I however know we get on so well or so it seems to me.
Any thoughts and advice would be welcomed.
I really hope that DMSI is helping me somehow, I just dont know how if it is.
I am fixated about my weight though and know I have to sort this out. i woke at 10am today and since have been drinking water and doing things on and off so some procrastination and some not.
I went to the porn site, no reason to really and I sent some introductory hello messages on the swingers dating site. Im sure this comes from fear of some kind but unsure what. Maybe fear its not real and shes not into me which would be hurtful of cos.
Anyway she said she would get back to me later today after listening to the song. The song is pointless its just a hook for her to get back in touch with me.
After the chat she was falling sleepy so we ended the call.
No Fap: 45 days
extra: I did have a scary type of dream. Not nightmarish but more sad events that took place. I recall this probably because I woke during it but yeah it wasnt a nice dream and dont want to share too much about it.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
